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𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟟𝟙

-나는 그들의 것, 그들의 내 꺼야-

maybe i shouldn't have kissed him

but that's hard to do when he's so captivating

when all of them are

i slowly walked towards soonyoung, keeping the scarf close to my face to hide my blushing cheeks

it's become hard for me to resist them. after they revealed their feelings and now that i understand my own

i love them

people will think i'm a slut. they're going to call me selfish and a whore

but i'm starting to care less of what people think of me

people have called me worse things

eunjung and seulgi are great examples of how people, humans, treat me. i'm sure not all of them are like that, but personally, people suck

they ostracize you, they treat you like a freak because you're the slightest bit different than them

in my case, it was because i didn't have parents or regular home life. because i don't have a blood family; but, i once read a book that said, 'the blood of the covenant is stronger than the water of the womb'. it fits perfectly to how my life is. my mother might have wanted me but my father and grandmother didn't

they were also too selfish and too greedy for money to care about me

they wanted kai's money, and that's all that mattered to them

but i'm at least grateful that my mother did want me. she wanted to see me grow up and have my own life, but she wasn't strong enough to fight for me

i don't hate them for trying to give me away for money

kai said they were desperate. that they were extremely poor

i just hope it was a difficult decision for them to make

that my life actually meant something to them before they decided to sell me to kai

"soonyoung" i whispered as i neared him

he didn't acknowledge my presence near him

so i took it as an opportunity to tease him a little

he's been teasing me since i was sixteen

i guess that's when he started seeing me differently. when he started seeing me as a woman. he started acting different and he teased me and he always found something to smirk about. i would always find his wandering hand near my shoulder or my own hand

i didn't realize why until he said he loved me

he was always like that because he loved me and i never knew until he said it. i was so dense i didn't realize it

but before i even reached where soonyoung was, my attention was drawn to a familiar man

the first person, besides the men that raised me, to be someone i cherished