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𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟟𝟛

⚠[slight trigger warning - mentions suicide]⚠

a/n again i am no expert on depression. i used to have depression, but i'm better now, this is the happiest i've been in my entire life, even if i had ups and downs, i'm happy. if you're someone that suffers with this, please get help. i was lucky enough to have a supportive family there with me. but please do seek help

-나는 그들의 것, 그들의 내 꺼야-

i was frozen in my place, my arms the were around him had dropped at the first sound of the gunshot, falling to his hips. the arms he had around me were still there

before he had a strong hold around me, but his hands went weaker with every shot

i watched him, with every shot feeling more and more useless than before

there was nothing i could do

i can't help him

i can't stop the person shooting

i can't do anything

"soonyoung..." i whispered his name, looking up at him, his pain filled expression

i can't do anything

i was frozen in this moment, terrified of the thoughts of what might happen to him. my concept of time was gone. right now in this moment, all i knew was this. my past had disappeared and thoughts of my short future were gone, i had forgotten who i am, i had forgotten everyone i knew. all i knew was this moment, and the thought of soonyoung dying in front of me

🌷

eventually the shots stopped firing and there was silence again. but it wasn't the peaceful silence from before. this was eerie; a terrifying silence that could swallow me whole

soonyoung fell to the ground, groaning in pain. but i stood there frozen, looking down at him with a horrified look on my face, unmoving

i was frozen in fear. fear of seeing him die and fear being shot myself. my breath was quick and shallow, my extremities were trembling at my sides. the scarf i had with me the entire evening, falling on the ground and drifting away in the wind

i stood like that for two minutes, watching him in pain

until someone's voice snapped me out of it

"areum!" mingyu screamed out as he walked out of the bushes, dragging a man behind him. my head snapping back to soonyoung and falling to his side, unsure of how to help him

"soonyoung" whispered, tears forming in my eyes. his eyes were closed but his face was strained, his hands were clutching his chest, trembling as they did

"soonyoung, how d-do i help you?" i swallowed away the lump that was forming in my throat

"mingyu- bring mingyu" he strained his voice, his eyes squinting in pain

"mingyu!" i screamed, throwing my heels off my feet and running to where he was. he had been gradually walking in our direction, still dragging the man behind him

"m-mingyu, he-" i panicked and grabbed one his arms, unable to make a coherent sentence

"are you okay? you weren't hurt, right?" i shook my head