Bestfriend | Ran Takahashi

Just Let Me Go

Ran's POV

Damn it! Damn it! Damn it!

How?!

Why can't he just leave her alone?

Thank goodness nobody was home. I wouldn't know how to explain the little outburst of mine. I sat on my bed, trying to think. What is he even doing here? Are they that serious that they're were sleeping on the same bed? Did Higurashi-san allow it? She could've slept with someone else, but it has to be my captain. Why? Is this some sort of karma biting my ass for what I did back then?

We were in a good place, but now she does that? How could she? How could she do that? To me?

Wait. What am I saying? She's not my girlfriend. Why should I be jealous? She can go and sleep around with all the guys in the team. I'm fine. I'm 100% fine. I felt tears dripping down my face. This is tears of anger. I will not shed tears for her or because of her. I am done.

Christmas Eve..

I heard from Riri that Ishikawa-san left on Tuesday and since then I've been receiving more and more messages and phone calls from her. She even visited twice, but I always manage to avoid her. I know she wanted to talk, but there's nothing left to say.

Mama's busy cooking for tonight's dinner since she invited the Higurashi family. I guess there's no escaping tonight. I'll just have to play it cool and not give a damn. Riri tried talking to me after she found out what happened, but I'm not going to hear it. She always have her back, no matter what. Maybe. because she sees her as her older sister? I still manage to avoid Riri's constant nagging. She probably believed some sort of excuse Aya made on how she ended up being on top of him.

I spent the majority of the day in my room. Thinking of a plan on how to avoid dinner, so far.. nothing. I was so deep into thinking that I didn't even hear my door open and close. I didn't hear Riri come in until she spoke.

"You're so pathetic," she said, scaring the living daylights out of me.

"Whaaa- how did you-" I tried.

She sat on my computer chair, rolling it infront of the door in order to lock me in there.

"Spoke to her again?" I asked.

"Not since yesteday, but really though? You think they slept together? Also, why are being such a dick about it? Are you her boyfriend?" she hissed at me.

"They slept together, I saw it with my own two eyes," I replied.

"Do you love her?"

That question caught me off guard. I was not expecting that.

"What?"

"You heard what I said, do you love her?" she repeated.

Do I love her? I honestly have not thought about it. I know for a fact that I love her as a bestfriend, but do I love her more than that? Why does this feel like I'm back in high school?

"I talked to her, she told me everything. She told me about her relationship with Ishikawa-san. In great details too. She told me how your relationship were in a good place before that 'incident,' and that she was really happy when you two were in good terms," she interrupted.

"Probably all lies, she's learned how to lie while living in Tokyo"

"You think so? I don't think she'll lie about missing you or how she said that she wished it could be more than bestfriends"

"I don't know why you're telling me all this. It's not going to change my mind"

"I like her, Ran-nii, she's good for you. Whenever she's around, you're always smiling and you have this glow. But, if it's not meant to be.. then I guess it's not"