Bestfriend | Ran Takahashi

First Love

What would you do if the person you love the most hates you? I honestly don't know the answer... He said it to my face.. he meant it. He really hates me. I wanted to call him, to message him... but what's the point? It's not like he'll answer my calls or reply to my messages. He doesn't care anymore... so what's the point? What's the point of living now?

I couldn't sleep.
I couldn't eat.

There's no purpose on doing.. anything.. but I at least have to finish this.. Soma-san trusted me with the PR team.

It was 2:45pm. I looked myself in the mirror and I look worst than before. I washed my face.. and that's about it. Why am I so ugly?! Ughhh! There's no helping it. I didn't put a gauze on my forehead.

I met with Miyaka and Jenny to make sure we have everything ready for finals. "Aya-chan.. you look.. not yourself today" Jenny said, trying to be nice. "Oh.. do I really look that bad?"

"You just look like you lost your will to live or something" Miyaka said, pulling out a small bag.

Bingo, I thought.

"Here, let me help you.. I noticed that you rarely or never wear make up.. it's not like you need to.. you're pretty without it anyway.." Miyaka told me, pulling out some make up from the small bag.

They used a... uh.. bb cream to even out my skin and put some eyeliner and mascara.. a little blush and lip tint..

"There.. you look like your old self" Jenny said, handing me a small mirror.

I looked at it and she was right.. I look like my old self... when I was still with him.. "Thank you.." I told them, "You guys are the best.."

----- Finals, Japan v Iran -----

The match started.. Ran scoring the first point from the back down mid. I cheered, of course.. even if he hates me, I will never stop supporting him. I'll always be his number 1 fan, always.

Big block from Iran.. 3-1 so far in set one, but senpai came back with a hit 3-2. Senpai scoring again, tied to 3-3.

It's back and forth between the teams, but Iran taking an early lead with 7-5. It's going to be a tough match, just like the Olympics. I wondered my Yamauchi-san isn't playing. We need him to help with the blocks.

We were down by 4, but managed to tie it up. Ran scoring again. I would usually say proud girlfriend moment, but I'm not his anymore... but at least I get to see him smile, it's all that matters.

24-24, we had a few service mistakes.. Iran winning the set, 27-25, 1-0 Iran.

During break, I felt someone watching me or looking at me. I looked up from my tablet and saw Ran looking, he quickly looked away. Weird... Senpai came over for a second to check on how I'm doing since I basically avoided everyone last night.

"How are you doing?" he asked.

"Could be better, but it is what it is.." I told him, keeping a straight face. It's not the time and place to be emotional. I have to be professional.. I'm working.

"Aya.."

"Senpai, please.. not now, not here.. I'm barely keeping it together.. so just leave it alone" I told him.

He nodded in reply and went back to the team.

I went to the bathroom in the locker room as I felt myself about to cry.. I stood infront of the mirror trying to calm myself down. AVC is almost done, you can last until tomorrow.. I told myself. I stayed there for a few minutes, once I was calm I went back. I took a pill that was prescribed to me for pain and drank some water. I tied my hair back since it was making my stitches itch and the last thing I need right now is to scratch it and have it bleed again.