Bestfriend | Ran Takahashi

Sacrifice

These past couple of months went by fast. I avoided him as best as I could. I don't think seeing him is a good idea. Daisuke-nii asked about what happened during AVC. I gave him a summary but I lied on how I got my injury. To say he pissed was an understatement.. I told him to just let it go. What's done is done.

I applied for an athletic training program in the states. Just an hour away from where Kenzo-nii lives. I think it's best that I leave and forget about him. I'll come back when I'm ready. I know running away from my problems is cowardly, but what else can I do? He's made his point. He never reached out to me nor did he reply or call me back. There's nothing for me here anymore. I know it's wrong to revolve everything around him, but that's how it went.. do I regret it? No. My memories with him will never compare to others. They're the best memories. I'll treasure them until the day I die. I kept his ring, I put it in a necklace along with mines. I still wear the bracelet, I will forever be his number 1 fan.

I recieved my acceptance letter and will start the following semester in the states, which is mid January. Kenzo-nii and Ichiro-nii decided to come back for Christmas. So, I'm leaving with them when they come back to the states. Papa was sad, but he's proud of me, for taking this opportunity. He never asked or mentioned anything about my relationship with Ran, but I know that he knows something happened.

I learned from Riri that Ran got an offer from a club in Italy. I'm happy for him, his dreams are coming true. He's following senpai's footsteps. His idol. Speaking of senpai, he called me when he learned about the news of me going to the states and Ran's offer. He asked if I was okay. I told him I was, which is a total lie, but he knows that. He asked if I've talked to him. I told him that I haven't, that I've been avoiding him. He wished me good luck in the states and to keep him updated and that he'll miss seeing me around whenever he's back in Japan.

It was late December.. I'm leaving for the states in less than two weeks. Today is my last day in JVA. The PR team was sad to see me go. Soma-san even offered me a full time job just to keep me. It was a great offer, but I just needed to get away. I need to heal. I need to move on. To forget about him. Staying here is not going to help. 

He had an interview that same day. I wasn't involved in it, but I heard that it's regarding his offer. I tried to avoid him while he was in the building. Taking the stairs instead of the elevator, hiding in some rooms if I see him. It's stupid, I know, but I don't know how I'll react if I come face to face with him.

He waited outside. I waited for him to leave. We rode on the same train but different sections. It was raining when we got to the station near Nittai... It was pouring hard. I let him leave first. I was behind him, a few feet away. Not once did he notice my presence behind him. He didn't have an umbrella with him. I wanted to share mines, but I was scared of rejection, so I stayed back. The light turned green, he crossed.. I was behind him.

I noticed the car swerving towards his way before he did. It was going fast. Without thinking.. without hesitating.. I called out, "Watch out!" and pushed him hard on the back, out of the car's way.

I don't remember much.. except the excruciating pain all over my body and the rain falling... My body wouldn't move.. and then everything went black.

I heard someone calling me.. begging me to open my eyes.

"Open your eyes, please.. I'm here now... I'm begging you.. just open your eyes.. let me know you're okay.."

Someone begged. His voice sounded desperate and sad. I tried to open my eyes.. it was him.. it's Ran...

"Hi.." I tried to say, but nothing came out.. I choked on something..

I was in his arms. I missed this.. He looked down on me and noticed I was awake.. barely