"Cain, if you can't leave the streets for me and our baby, then me and you, we're done." I pointed between the two of us as tears streamed down my face and he bit his lip, looking down at the floor before he looked back up into my eyes.
"Aight."
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Cain in the MM.
Shanell Hours later Midnight
"I love you, BG." Cain said to me as I laid there breathing heavily, sweat dripping from my body as I tried to get my breathing under control from the wild sex we'd just had.
"You hear me?" He asked as he laid with his arms wrapped around me and I nodded slowly.
"Okay." Was all I said as I turned over onto my side away from him, feeling a rush of pain in between my thighs.
"And I apologize again for overreacting with you, ma."
"I really forgot I left them condoms in there from last time and shit"
"We just don't be using them like that, so I ain't think nothing of it." He went on apologizing again about his mistake, after I'd told him the condoms were his but I kept my back turned to him, simply nodding my head.
"It's fine, Cain." Was all I said barely above a whisper as I laid there feeling completely hopeless. There was nothing else I could do so I might as well.
Doesn't even matter. I thought to myself.
"Aight, coo." He said as he wrapped his arm around me again and pulled me back to him, pushing his face into my hair.
When he did, I laid there and I softly cried. I cried because I knew there was no getting out of this. I cried because no matter how much I tried, Cain would always come out on top.
Literally.
I had his daughter, from the looks of things and the rate we were going, I would be having another and I was just starting to embrace it all.
He'd had played his cards right snd he knew exactly what he was doing, so I had no choice but to deal with it now.
Shaking my head, I grabbed at my comforter and pulled it closer to me. I just wanted to sleep now.
As I drifted off to sleep, I could hear Cain's light snores as I cuddled more into him, reminiscing about good times with him.
I just wish things were better again. I thought to myself.
Before any of this, Cain was attentive, loving and he expressed himself with words rather than just sex. He was never a saint but he always made sure to play it safe with me. He never involved with his drug money or any of his crimes. He knew I wasn't that type of girl so he didn't want to make me that type.
But it's like as soon as I broke up with him, he wanted to attach himself to me in anyway possible. And I can't say that I blamed him, I get it, we were in love for 6 years before our split but this was exhausting.
His insecurities and his abandonment issues were becoming way too much. And in the back of my mind, I knew it had a lot to do with his own history.
His dad was a huge drug lord back in the day and he looked up to him as if he was a God. Every since he was little, he wanted to be just like him.
But when his dad died, he was murdered by one of his closest friends on the day of Cain and I's high school graduation and from that day, Cain had became way worse than before. He wanted revenge, he wanted money and he vowed to always live in his father's name.
In his honor.
That's why he was so serious about being in the streets and that's when I'd had a change of heart. He was simply a corner boy when I first started dating him and I thought it was cute at first.
I had a "bad boy" deeply in love with me but those things changed once I realized he wouldn't. I mean, I thought having Mya and breaking up with him would make him want to but I was wrong.
So now I just wanted to be single like we said we were going to be but he was holding on and he was holding on hard.
And I can't lie, at some points, so was I.
Laying there now, with just me and my thoughts, Cain's grip on me became tighter as I backed up into him, feeling his muscular body against me. Though I was still upset about not getting to go out because of our blow up, my anger had substantially subsided as I simply enjoyed these moments.
Lord knows it'd been forever since he just sat down, put his guard down and slept. Not on the move or worrying about where the money is.
This was the Cain I knew first.
About five minutes went by as I laid there restlessly now before my phone rang loudly and Cain sighed deeply as he shifted in his sleep, slightly letting me go so I could get up to answer it.
When I did, I saw that I had multiple missed calls and text messages. All from Bianca and Halima and not even a second later, Lima's name popped up across the screen again.
Looking back, I watched as Cain slept naked on his back with his head turned toward the window. Deciding to step out of my room, I closed the door behind me as I walked toward the living room
"Hello." I answered softly and I could hear loud music in the background and Bianca's loud voice.
"Bitch, what happened to I'm going out. I'm single." She taunted and I couldn't help but to roll my eyes with a small smile.
"Is Mya there? Did you ever get my mama to watch her?" Lima then went on asking and I nodded as if she could see me.
"Yeah, she's over there. She's watching her."
"Well bitch, come on then. Come out with us." Bi pleaded into the phone.
"We're about to be on our way to come and get you now." She added and I smiled to myself as a rush of excitement went through my body.
"I don't know." I hesitated, considering I still had Cain here in my bed.
"It's late." I made up an excuse, making them laugh.
"Girl, it's only 12 o' clock in a Friday night."
"The clubs don't start getting lit until right now." Lima went on saying and I looked down with a smile, realizing I could probably still go out as long as I hurried up and got the hell out of here without waking that crazy man.
"Look, we're on our way to your house to get you. Is my brother there?" She then went on asking, in knowing tone.
"Shut up." Was all I said, pouting to her.
"I know he is.." She trailed off and they both laughed while I rolled my eyes playfully.
"Look, sis."
"Take a shower because I know y'all was doing the nasty, then get ready, do you hair, put on something sexy and come on."
"We'll be there in like 30 minutes." Was all she said.
"But-" I started but stopped as the phone call ended and I sighed to myself, looking at the floor.
