Have I ever actually mentioned that I hate school?
I think every kid is staring at me and I don't fucking know why.
I got closer to some girls I used to talk to last year.
Me: Hey!
They looked at me for a second and then said "hi". That was dry.
They kept going their conversation.
Friend: What did you do this summer, Olivia?
They all kinda smirked. In a bad way.
I can't explain it.
Me: Um nothing special I think.
Friend: Yeah cheating isn't that special.
Other friend: Or choosing a boy and not your bestie.
Other friend: Or being a bitch.
Me: Excuse me?
I was shocked.
Other friend: Yeah so dramatic. It's not a big deal. Keep up the good work, honey.
Me: Why are you talking to me like that?
Friend: Are you triggered?
Other friend: Kylie told us about you. You're a bad person, Olivia.
I... I didn't know what to do.
Kylie talked shit about me?
She told everyone my biggest secret with Marcus?
I wanted to cry so bad. That day was already fucked up.
But I was so damn mad at the same time.
I saw Jackson. I didn't know if it was right to talk to him. But I went closer.
Me: Jackson?
Jackson: Hey.
Me: I know you fucking hate me right now but can you please tell me where's Kylie?
Jackson: I didn't see her.
I sighed.
Me: Fuck.
Jackson: This situation sucks, right?
Me: Which one?
Jackson: I don't know how and why, but Kylie spread shit about you.
Me: Did you talk to her?
Jackson: No, I didn't. But she blocked you on social media and she keeps sharing some bad things.
Me: She... she what?
Jackson: She didn't post your name. Just some bad quotes etc. People probably asked her what's going on.
Me: And how do you know?
Jackson: Not everyone knows. Just some of your friends. Lala and Luka told me last week.
Me: What did they actually say to you?
Jackson: I know I should be mad at you too for kissing Marcus but I felt bad for telling Kylie 'cause she told everyone... These kids said that Kylie told them you cheated on me.
Me: I'm sorry, Jackson.
Jackson: Doesn't matter. Kylie said you chose a boy over her.
Me: Not true... Fuck why is she such a liar.
Jackson: Don't worry. She didn't mention which boy.
Me: I don't fucking care anymore. She was never my best friend.
Jackson: I'm sorry, Olivia. Look. Here she is.
I turned around and I saw her.
She seemed sad and regretted.
Me: You're such a bitch!
I came closer to her.
Me: What's wrong with you?
Kylie: Olivia.
Me: I'm fucking sorry for everything, right? I'm fucking sorry for being crazy in love with the bad boy you never liked. I'm fucking sorry for not acting like I love Jackson because YOU wanted us together. And yeah, sorry for having a boyfriend. That meant I chose a boy over you, sure... But it's friends after boyfriends and not whores after boyfriends. Fucking asshole.
Kylie: Olivia... I feel so bad.
Me: Stop pretending.
Kylie: I said all these things about you when I was mad. I saw you and Marcus together kissing one day and I didn't even know you guys were in a relationship. So yes, I got jealous.
Me: You were never a true friend. Maybe I did some bad things but you're even worse.
Kylie: We both suck at least.
Me: I've NEVER betrayed my best friend. I've never talked shit about her behind her back, and I've never pretend she meant a lot to me.
Kylie: You did mean a lot to me.
Me: Go fuck yourself, Kylie.
Kylie: We both fucked up. And I did worse things. Can we even talk about it?
Me: No. My life is much better without you.
That was a lie.
I miss her every day.
There's no point of living if it's without your bestie.
Kylie: Are you with Marcus?
Me: Non of your business. And don't you dare talk to me again. Ever.
I left her alone.
Some of our friends kept looking at us.
I can't even look at them. I'm so freaking angry.
My only true friend did this to me.
I can't even believe in true friendship anymore.
Nothing is real anymore.
It's all about attention.
It's all about glory.
It's all about fame.
There are no more good people out there...
