One more day of school.
My eyes are looking for him.
For Marcus.
I wanna see him so badly.
Look in his eyes.
One more eye contact.
For one more time.
I went on the second floor again by myself.
He was sitting right there.
When he saw me, he smiled immediately.
(Marcus): Hello.
(Me): Hi.
I didn't know what to do.
Okay. I saw him. Now what?
He came in front of me, smiling.
(Marcus): What's up? What are you doing here again?
(Me): Here's my class. Get used to it.
We both smiled.
(Marcus): Alright I'm sorry you're right. I can't get used to seeing such a beautiful girl as you every single day.
He smirked.
I didn't say anything.
(Marcus): What are you actually doing here? Have you been looking for me?
(Me): The question is why are YOU always here.
He didn't reply.
(Me): You see?
I turned around ready to go but he grabbed my arm, bringing me really really close to him.
I looked at his lips immediately and he looked at mine.
(Me): What do you want from me?
He didn't reply.
He was just staring at my lips.
(Me): I want you to explain me. What do you wanna get from this?
(Marcus): I don't know.
I didn't expect this answer, actually.
He wasn't sure?
School bell rang and some kids saw us like that.
(Me): If you don't know what you want, then stop bothering me.
(Marcus): It's not that simple.
I pushed him away and then I left.
Some girls were looking at me while I was going inside the class.
They were some of my good friends.
(Me): What's up?
(Friends): Oh um hey Olivia.
(Me): Hi. Something wrong?
(Friends): Come here.
I went closer and they started to talk.
(Friends): We saw you with Marcus.
(Me): Yeah. Do you know him?
(Friends): We actually do. What's happening between you two?
I realised Jackson was exactly next to us.
He was listening to our conversation.
(Me): Nothing is happening. We're not even friends.
(Friends): That's good. Because he's not for you.
(Me): What do you guys mean?
Kylie was next to me. She heard us.
(Kylie): Excuse me? You and who? What's going on?
(Me): Nothing Kylie.
She knows when I lie.
She does.
(Kylie): Okay girls thank you, but I need to talk to her.
She grabbed my hand and went outside.
(Kylie): What the fuck?
(Me): Alright wait. I saw him one day and I don't know. Something is happening. I thought it was nothing but one eye contact was enough.
(Kylie): Can you PLEASE tell me what exactly happened?
I told her the whole story.
(Kylie): You don't know who is he, do you?
(Me): I... At first I didn't even know his name.
(Kylie): Come on Olivia! You've never heard about him? He's a fucking asshole.
(Me): You don't know him-
(Kylie): I DON'T KNOW HIM? He's just playing with girls and then leave! He doesn't want a relationship! He's having sex with other hoes and then ignore them!
My heart was kinda in pain that moment.
I didn't believe her. I didn't want to.
And I still don't believe the words she said.
(Me): Maybe... Maybe you're right. But something is different. He's acting differently when he's with me!
She laughed ironically.
(Kylie): here we go again. Come to the conclusion, Olivia. Do you actually think you can change him?
I was kinda annoyed.
I didn't like the words she said.
(Me): No. I don't want to change him, Kylie.
And I was telling the truth.
I never wanted to change him.
I just want him.
The way he is.
The way he exactly is.
(Kylie): Olivia... Boys don't change for girls. Personalities CAN'T be changed. Maybe some 'bad boys' have a good heart and be nice for a relationship. But some others are what they are.
(Me): And Marcus? How do you know he's not different?
(Kylie): I know him better. I've heard so many bad things about him. He's not the one, Olivia. Forget about it.
He's not the one.
Maybe she was right.
Well... Yes she was right.
He wasn't the one.
He never was.
But for a moment I believed he was...
