I'm so confused about everything.
Kylie is here with me and we both trying to find a solution.
(Kylie): So.. You're in relationship with Marcus?
(Me): I don't know.
(Kylie): Are you friends?
(Me): I don't know.
(Kylie): Are you going to just date?
I sighed.
(Me): I have no idea, Kylie.
(Kylie): Why don't you ask?
(Me): What?
(Kylie): IF YOU GUYS ARE
TOGETHER.
(Me): We are, I think.
(Kylie): You think? I mean 2 hours ago you said you're together.
(Me): I DON'T KNOW I'M CONFUSED.
(Kylie): You guys were making out and you don't even know what you are?
(Me): We said a lot of things but I'll never be sure about his intentions.
(Kylie): You need to trust him. If not, this between you will never work out.
I closed my eyes.
We were lying on the bed, here in our hotel room.
(Kylie): It's 10:00. We need to get ready for today's night-out.
(Me): I'm scared, Kylie.
She looked me in the eyes.
(Kylie): Scared of what?
I sighed.
(Me): Of this situation. I mean, I sometimes believe it's gonna be okay. Marcus is gonna be the right one.
(Kylie): But?
(Me): But he's a fuck boy. And that changes everything.
She smiled.
(Kylie): Olivia look at me.
I did what she said to me.
(Kylie): You knew all along he's this kind of boys. It was your choice. Now you gotta believe in that feeling.
(Me): Let's start to get ready.
(Kylie): You sure you okay?
(Me): Yeah.
I wasn't okay.
I wasn't feeling good.
Yes I was in love with him. But I could never answer one question.
Am I enough for him?
This was always on my mind. I was trying to figure out.
But I never did.
Maybe the question I should've asked myself it's if HE was enough for me.
But love makes us blind.
You can't see your worth anymore. But just because someone can't appreciate you, doesn't mean you're not special.
(Kylie): Jessica called me. Everyone is waiting outside the hotel. We're going clubbing.
(Me): I'm ready. Let's go unwind for a little.
(Kylie): Cool let's go.
(Me): Don't forget the keys.
(Kylie): Don't forget your brain.
(Me): Excuse me?
She grabbed the keys.
(Kylie): You're gonna need it. Don't forget to use it.
I didn't listen to her.
But if I could go back and change anything, I wouldn't have changed anything either.
Almost.
