Can't Control

Chapter 16: Altruistic

"You're both talking to each other again," I said with a smile. I had noticed during our drive that the two of them had been speaking to each other in German while I'd been sitting in the backseat of the car. And this time they weren't loud or interrupting each other. I didn't know exactly what they were talking about, but I knew that some of it was about me, because they had mentioned "Schatz" several times. I was currently seated on the end of Kylo's bed as my two Knights strolled into the bedroom. Trudgen was carrying my luggage bag, and Kylo had three bottles of water in his hands.

The two of them looked over at each other, an expression that I couldn't read, and they set down the stuff they were holding; Trudgen set my luggage by one of the closets, and Kylo set the waters on each bedside table. Then they came to sit on either side of me, Kylo to my left and Trudgen to my right.

"I know you haven't been talking to each other much," I continued. I looked down at my hands and started fidgeting with my nails. "Does it, by chance, have anything to do with me?" Neither of them said anything, but Trudgen placed a hand under my chin and turned my head to face him. He kissed me softly for just a moment. Kylo then followed, turning my head to his and placing a gentle kiss to my lips. "What are you doing?" I asked both of them. "I don't want to pit you against each other."

Kylo laughed lightly. "You're not. Trudgen and I talked—"

"Yeah, talked," Trudgen said with a sarcastic smirk and rolled his eyes.

"We... physically fought about this earlier tonight," Kylo gestured to his face, "but neither of us want to let you go."

"We take what we want," Trudgen added, and I turned to look at him, "and we both want you. We just didn't know how you would feel about it."

"Feel about... being with you?" I asked.

"We didn't want to pressure you into something you might not have wanted. We both enjoy being with you; between the sex, the time we spend together, the late nights with you..." Kylo trailed off.

"I really like that too," I said, glancing between the two of them. "I like my time with both of you."

"We both want to be with you, Samara," Kylo replied and took my left hand in his.

I paused, and my face fell. "Are you telling me I have to choose?"

"No, not at all," Trudgen said quickly and turned his body further towards me, placing a hand on my right thigh. "We're saying... we both want to be with you. A committed relationship with both of us."

I blinked several times. They really wanted to be with me? Share me? And didn't have a problem with each other? "Are you sure that's what you two want?" Kylo and Trudgen took another look at each other before answering, silently speaking with their eyes. I was worried that this might not work in the long-run if they both weren't willing to try, but each of them responded positively. "But I don't want to be the reason you two end up resenting each other later. I don't want to end up like Brandy."

"You are not like her." Kylo squeezed my hand in his, placing his other hand on top of it. "It's one thing to share. It's another thing entirely to go behind our backs."

I was speechless. That's exactly what I wanted, but we hadn't discussed it before. It really took them exchanging blows to bring it up, but I'm glad they had. I didn't know what to say, so instead I took my right hand and placed it on Trudgen's face, pulling his lips into mine. The kiss started gently until I opened my lips, and Trudgen grabbed my cheeks with both of his hands and got more aggressive, nipping at my tongue and lower lip. I squeezed Kylo's hand with my left that was still held in his, and he squeezed back. When I pulled away, I took a moment to stare into Trudgen's hazel-brown eyes that I'd missed while he was away. They were bright and hot, like the sun, as he stared back at me, his pupils dilated with hunger.