The End. Illumi x reader x Hisoka

This is goodbye

Hisoka's POV

I glance at illumi again. I stare at him for a moment with shock. he seems shocked as well. As tears run down his usually emotionless face, he seems confused.

"Wh- why are you crying?" Y/n miraculously manages to say. These few words bring more tears to illumi's eyes. When soon arrive at the closest hospital.

The only reason me and illumi let go of her hands was so they could get her out of the ambulance, but as soon as they got her out, we took hold again. the paramedics rush her inside. Multiple doctors surround her filing around me and illumi's arms.

"I'm sorry but both of you will have to leave!" one of the doctors tell us. I share a look with illumi, he meets my eyes understanding immediately. we let go of her hands and backed away from her so the doctors had room to help her. We watch, as the doctors try their best to save her. Her eyes wander, confused.

"Hiso? Illu?" she croaks somehow.

I tense up, I can't lose her. I had planned our whole future together. We would get married, she'd become y/n morrow. We'd have three kids, one dog and one cat. We would live in a large house, in a nice little neighborhood. We'd be happy. forever. We haven't fulfilled that yet. She can't die, destiny can't let her go.

"I-" she throws up blood, it looks a lot more than I've ever seen though. I know its not, but the red seems darker and more violent than ever.

"I love you." She says reaching her quivering hand towards us. we both rush forward grabbling one each. she smiles, and stares at us intently. her eyes start to glaze over, they begin to loose her sparkle.

"NO! DON'T YOU DARE! YOU CAN'T! NOT YET!" I yell angrily, squeezing her hand tighter. the doctor stop what they're doing, checking her pulse. one glances at the other shaking his head.

"I'm sorry sir. She's gone." he states. he seems to calm, how could he just give up? they could still save her! why won't they just try?

 I let go of her hand, and start walking towards the nearest doctor, letting my bloodlust go free. he trembles and falls staring at me. I stop mid-step towards him when I hear a sound. I glance back towards where the sound is coming from.

Illumi is on his knees, his head is bowed against her still hand.he's making the noise. the sobbing is coming from him, its so loud. Almost screaming. I stare in shock at the scene.

Illumi's POV

I don't understand. I know she's gone, but I loved her. She loved me for who I was, She actually loved me. Not even my parents did, she was the only one who truly loved me, and now she's gone. 

The sounds coming from me get louder, my face is wet and its getting hard to breath. The wetness is coming from my eyes, I'm crying. I don't get it. I was finally loved, than it was taken away. Why?

I'd never be able to feel her soft hand grabbing mine, I'd never be able to go stargazing with her, I'd never get the chance to see her walk down the aisle, I'd never be the one to father her children, I wouldn't be able to raise them to be normal kids, and give them the childhood I wish I had.

It was all down the drain. Why? Why did I have to get so close to her for it to hurt so bad?

I clench her hand between mine, as I kneel of the floor. her blood, dried on my hands. Her still open, dead eyes staring ahead. A smile still on her face. I stand up and sit on the hospital bed, cradling here corpse in my arms, wishing I had been able to hold her like this when I had the chance. Why?

The person who taught me what love feels like, was now gone.

The sob's grew louder, but I couldn't care less. This was too much for me to handle. Now that she's gone, so was my purpose. Why am I still alive? what's the point? These thoughts brought me back to my memories of her. 

The sob's grew quieter as I escaped from reality by imagining our future.

Hisoka and Illumi POV

Why? why her?