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Kemaskini Kehidupan | 19 but 17

Assalamualaikum, hello, annyeonghaseyo and yo ssup to everyone who is reading this, if any hahahaha.

Wow, it has been almost 2 years I think since the last time I actually used this app. Banyak benda baru, writing opportunities, paid stories, and oh, THE ADS- your 19 years old Fatiha was quite surprised when she first encountered the:

"Just a sec...

we've got a video ad loading up"

Um, thank God the ad does not come up every chapter is all I'm saying. All those new features of wattpad and guess what my header is. 0Ld 2017.

It has been so long that I feel awkward writing story now- yup tried writing one but hmm let's talk about that later. To be honest, I feel awkward writing this one too.. like you know, what style of writing should I use? As I'm writing this, my mind is still busy wondering if I should go with laid back style of writing since 'T' used (and it still is) to be my online diary and the place I poured out my thoughts.. or should I write in a serious manner considering how long I have left this space. Huhu.

But ok, I guess I'll just write whatever.. haha.

PERTAMA SEKALI (walaupun ini bukan ayat yang pertama), terima kasih kepada manusia-manusia yang masih membaca luahan hati dan pendapat saya pada tahun 2021. Wow, you guys rock, sumpah. I checked my notifications.. Tak tahu nak rasa apa bila nampak masih ada yang baca, ada yang komen dan ada yang add to their reading list.

And for that, I'm thankful. Please know that, you guys are one of the reasons why I'm writing this and also back to wattpad.

Ok dan kemaskini kehidupan.

Jujurnya, aku masih tak sangka aku dah 19, going to 20 in a few months. Phew, how fast time flies. 

I'm feeling 17, for real. I am not sure if my memories are THAT GREAT, but I still remember most of the things that happened during high school, I still remember how I felt back then. Vividly. Mental wise, I feel nothing much changes. I am not sure how others see me but one thing for sure is I don't see myself as someone who is 19. I don't think I'm that matured. Though I'm all for "age doesn't define maturity", I expect myself to be "more" when I'm 19 instead of just this.

Faham tak.. hahaha.

19 and what I see I have improved/achieved are:

Alhamdulillah I've finished my foundation studies (YUHUUUU I SURVIVED Y'ALL), sekarang dah tahu masak and I think I have talent in baking hshs, I dah boleh memandu (like I know how to) but still belum dapat lesen ummm, I finally upgraded my phone earlier this year (is then even an improvement but we gotta make the list long HSHS), I learnt how to edit a video and uh as unreal as it sounds, I am now a proud nctzen. Yup, the one who wrote how she did not like kpop is now a kpop stan. Hm, you never know..

And.. that's that I guess. 

Other than that..

My height is still the same.

I still keep my circle small.

I still can't control my facial expression. 

Sometimes I find myself struggling over certain words; advice or advise contohnya. Like, I know but I still check the dictionary just to be sure. Yo this girl right here is as confused as ever.

Still a potato I think.

Oh and taken? Nope. 

Ha. 

Pendek cerita, aku tak rasa macam banyak yang berubah walaupun dah dua tahun. Because you know, when I was 17, I expected me to be like you know, I don't know how to explain it. 

Tak tahu la sebab covid-19 ke apa, but I feel like I can't experience MANY THINGS and if you ask me what is that "many things", man, I don't even know what I'm expecting to experience.

Alahai berbelitnya la ayat aku. Ampun.

Jadi dia macam.. I lost to my own expectation lol. 

Basically, nothing much to update haha sorry for wasting your time and thanks for reading! 

Peace.

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now that I'm reading this again, kenapa rasa macam aku tulis fefeeling macam retis ye? yooo sorry for that.