The Landy Chronicles - Andy Hurley, Fall out boy fanfic

7: Landy

Flashbacks from hell – Landy

Lainey

I was twelve years old, daddy’s new girlfriend hated me and would always push me around and hurt me on purpose then tell daddy it was because I was undisciplined and I had hurt Tara. Tara never told daddy it was a lie and she’d watch as her mother beat me then lied to her father. I used to think it was because she was scared of being hurt too. Maybe she was. Until the day I stopped seeing my father at age sixteen, I never asked why and she never said a word about the abuse. Of course, daddy would cover up for her and threaten that if I ever told my mother what was going on, he’d be the one who gave me my next and last beating ever.
***end of flashback***

“You’re Andy’s ex-girlfriend? The one being beaten up by her new boyfriend and that needs a place to stay?”

She hung her head. “Fuck it, Elaina, I didn’t mean to come back into your life this way. If I had known…”

I cut her off. “If you had known you still would have come here anyway. Nearly five years Tara! And you didn’t say a word to our father once about what your mother was saying being bullshit!”

She breathed in sharply. “Lanes, you weren’t the only one being threatened and abused.”

I didn’t know how long he had been standing there. Andy spoke out of nowhere. “She isn’t lying Lainey. She used to always tell me about how her mother would beat her and her step sister Elly. I would have never put two and two together. You guys are as different as day and night.”

I glanced back and forth between Tara and Andy. I didn’t know who to believe or what to think right now. I grabbed my bag that was still sitting in the lounge from earlier. “I need to get away from here and clear my head.”

Andy

Tara had started packing. “I can’t deal with this shit anymore! You’re always so clingy and you always want to talk about “our future,” why can’t we just live a day at a time! I don’t want to settle down! I don’t want children with ANYONE! Not even the rockstar Andy Hurley!”
Her words stung like the needle of another tattoo being inked on me – painful at first but something I had come to get used to over time. This wasn’t the first time we had this argument but it would be the last. I couldn’t deal with this anymore. “Tara, if you leave this time make sure you never come back.”
She slammed her suitcase shut. “Trust me, this time I won’t. I’m done Andy.”
***end of flashback***

I had cleaned Tara up and showed her the guest bedroom and shower, given her something to eat and put her to bed. I was so confused and my head was racing at a million miles per minute. My girlfriends step sister was my ex-girlfriend who had destroyed me and I had just pulled a Tara-worthy stunt on Lainey to the point that she’d disappeared.

I had tried calling both Lainey’s business and personal phones and they had been turned off. I was literally in rut – row; caught with my ex in my guest room and my girlfriend M.I.A.

I grabbed a piece of paper and a pen off Lainey’s desk and started writing, not sure how to express what I felt.

“My 9 – 5 is cutting open old scars
Again and again, ‘til I’m stuck in your head
Had my doubts but I let them out
You are the drought
And I’m the holy water you have been without

And all my thoughts of you
They could heat or cool the room
And no, don’t tell me you’re crying
Oh Honey you don’t have to lie

Oh, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean any of it
I just got too lonely
In between being young and being right
You were my Versailles at night.”

I think I had just written a good portion of a song. I’d finish it up and send it to the guys when they got back. We’d all been having a really hard time lately and I think it reflected in the music we were writing for our new album. There was a very dark undercurrent to it that I wasn’t sure if anyone else was picking up on.

I sat in Lainey’s office, on her chair at her desk and waited. I didn’t know how long I would be waiting for but I would wait as long as I needed to.