Deliverance (Fem x Stem)

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Lilliana Morst

It's finally the day we agreed on both going back to Dallas. I'm taking my U-Haul and rental back to Texas soil (both have overdue fines), and I'm gonna see my baby for the first time in a long time.

I drop the U-Haul off at the apartment, then go and drop the rental off, getting an Uber from the car place back to the apartment. Teyanne's waiting for me besides Gia's car, where Gia waits too. I stand there, watching for Tey's next move. I'm not gonna run towards her like....like I just been missing her or some shit. She's the one tryna get me back.

Tey slowly walks towards me, her face openly unsure. Her lips crush against mine as we embrace. Our tongues play games as they wryly circle each other. Despite how harsh she had been physically, I had surprisingly missed her gentle touch. We broke apart and I looked up into her eyes. "Did you miss me?"

"Hell yeah," she grinned, about to kiss me again when Gia cleared her throat. "Nobody's happy to see Gia," she fake sniffled. I laughed and ran to embrace Gia. This girl just don't know it, but she was my savior. Hopefully things turn out good with Teyanne and I. I'm really hoping to try at something good this time around. "Thank you so much, girl."

"No problem, I really think you the one," she points at me, "I been telling Teyanne this almost each day."

"Come inside, come check out the place," Tey calls out by the front door of our place.

"I been wanting to see it. I had went to Tey's crib in Christiano a couple of times, but this way further out from Houston," Gia commented, stuffing her hands into her pockets. I dug around in my mine and handed her the keys to her car. "Thanks," she smiled back.

We entered and I suddenly saw my apartment through different eyes. We had a lot to be grateful for, and Teyanne had this new job. We was starting our relationship over, I had squashed everything back in Houston. "This place is lit. Needa have a party here for the one time," Gia joked.

"Girl, we finna move out soon," Teyanne set some of her things down on the table.

"A going awayyy party then," Gia suggested.

"She'll make any excuse to have a party," Tey cocked her finger at her friend. "She's crazy."

"She's a lil party girl...ain't nunin wrong wit dat," Gia sung. Tey rolled her eyes. "I'm goin to the bathroom, I'll be back." Gia didn't waste any time turning to me when Teyanne left. "You have any problems with her, you leave a voicemail saying you wanna have a party. That can be like our code or sumin. No, say you wanna have a dancing party. Just in case you do ever call wanting to have a party. Ima check in wit y'all every few days, and come down when I can."

I nod, hugging Gia gratefully.

"She's made some serious improvements but anything can happen. I got your back girl. I don't want you to turn out like Genesis," she whispered.

"What happened to Genesis?" I ask curiously.

We both hear Teyanne coming from the bathroom. "She killed herself because of the mental pain Tey put her through," Gia tells me quickly. Spotting Tey, she offers me a quick smile. "And any party you wanna throw at y'all's new place, lemme know about it and I can help out." I nodded, trying to mask all of the questions that ran through my head now.

"Ight," Gia took in a deep breath, "ima head out."

I suddenly wanted Gia to stay. I was scared. What if Teyanne hurt me as soon as her best friend was gone. Everyone could sense my unease. "I won't hurt you," Tey promises me again, pain in her own eyes. "If she hurts you, you call me," Gia points to her chest.

After Gia leaves, I stand by the door unsurely, gripping the doorway as I stare at Teyanne in fear. I thought that I was ready to be here, to be so near her. I'm not. Every time I look at her face a flash of pain rockets through me. It's almost suffocating.

It's almost like a pain attack.

"I can call Gia. To uh, come pick you up," Tey suggests quietly, "or I can leave. I don't wanna make you uncomfortable," she tells me.

I don't know what I should do so Teyanne makes the decision for me. She calls Gia back up, explaining the situation to her. Fortunately for me, Gia had barely made it out of Dallas city limits. She was turning around and staying for a day if needed. A wave of relief washed over me even though in the back of my head, I knew I'd probably go through this all over again when Gia leaves the next time.

"She's twenty minutes away," Teyanne informs me.

I nod, still standing by the doorway. She glances at me for a second, then walks off to our bedroom. I wonder what she thinks of me now? Does she see someone she still wants to beat? Or does she see her loving girlfriend, who gives her all at everything she pursues. Even Teyanne herself.

Music started playing, and I could hear "Worth It" by YK Osiris from a speaker. I mouthed the lyrics as I clutched the doorway, Teyanne still in our bedroom doing whatever. I slowly begin to walk towards the room, almost like a snake drawn to a sweet tune. I peek my head into the room.

Teyanne's stripping out of her clothes slowly, another set of clothes laid out on our bed. The room is tidy but looks the same. Teyanne abused me but...I love her the same. "Come here girl," she spots me at the doorway, a smirk on her lips. I join Teyanne in stripping off my clothes, my cuts and bruises long healed and damn near faded away.

She kisses me preciously up and down my body. It's changed so much since Christiano. It's like it's filled out more, more womanly. She lays me softly on the bed and by instinct, my legs open up. She slides my panties off, already soaked. She plays with my nipples for awhile, just staring into my eyes while my kitty throbs for her mouth against it.

"I love you, Lilliana," she whispers. "I'm not gonna lose my chance again. To be with you. To have your love. To have your trust."

She dips her head low and plays with my clit, my hands going to her hair as I grip it hard. She moans softly because she likes that shit. She likes pain. It brings her pleasure. She starts eating me out as I tilt my head back into the soft bed, trying to hold myself together. I wanted to cum so bad for this woman, but something in me was just telling myself to wait.

Wait.

Wait.

Wait.

She grips my thighs up higher so she can eat my ass out. My wetness is covering her face, and I realize I've already cum for Daddy. I flip over on my stomach and arch my back up as she eats my ass. I grip the sheets, begging for forgiveness from the Lord silently. I don't know if the path in life I'm taking is a good one or a bad one.

I don't know if what I'm doing and what I like is truly a sin or not. People say this and that, but no one truly knows. No one's truly seen it. The Bible could be a story for all we know, or it can be the truth.

She starts smacking my ass, making me smirk to myself. I know that I'm happy, even if others might not be with my lifestyle.

Happiness is what matters right?

"I want you to be mine," Teyanne whispers huskily into my right ear, tightly holding one of my locs and forcing my head back against her.

"Then you gotta win me over," I whisper, wetness dripping down my legs.