Why me? (bxb) {Editing}

Chapter Thirty One

School went on quite well the next day. I walked alone to Ethan's car afterschool because Sandy had to tutor someone in the library. I felt someone tab my shoulder and I looked up meeting Noah's gaze.

"Hey, William." I smiled at him.

"Hey, Ethan had a last minute thing he had to discuss with our teacher so I'm giving you a ride today." He explained and I nodded walking with him to his car.

I got in his car and sat on the passenger sat. It felt like ages since Noah last gave me a ride. It felt like ages since I last talk to him. I stared at him as he started driving hoping yesterday's topic does not come up but I also knew I had to explain myself.

"Hey, Uhm... William?" I said said he hummed in response not looking at me which I was very thankful for because he was still driving. "I'm sorry for not telling you about...what my ex-parents did." I said looking at my hands.

He did not reply. He drove to the diner without a word said which I respected. He was probably still upset. I was about to get out when he cleared his throat.

"I thought we told each other everything. I don't understand why you want to face every problem alone when I'm here for you. Sunshine, I don't know if you know this but you are like the only person in my life who is...constant. I thought I was too." He said and I looked up at him.

I did not realize how much this meant to him. I knew Noah cared. I knew he cared a lot but I really did not want to burden him with my problems, I did not think about how he would feel. Yeah, I definitely did not think.

"You are I swear you are. I just don't want you to worry or stress about my problems...I didn't want to be burden." I explained.

"How many times do I have to tell you? Your problem is my problem. Anything that distresses you distresses me. You can never be a burden to me not after all the shit we've been through."

His words made me want to cry. I have been inconsiderate. I never thought how Noah would feel. I apologized giving him a hug and swore to tell him every important aspect of my life.

After that tearful event I got into the diner and started my shift. I worked for like thirty minutes until Red came by what surprised me was that he was alone.

"So where are the others?" I asked handing him his food.

"The others are completing essays to get into colleges...I bet you already knew that though." He shrugged grabbing a French fry.

I looked at him confused. How could I have possibly known?

"Why? I mean...why is that?" I asked.

"Well because Saunders is doing the same thing." He said grabbing his burger.

Ethan was applying to a college...and he did not tell me. I did not understand why he would not tell me. I thought we told each everything. I told him everything, didn't I? I only told him things when I felt forced to or could not hide it anymore so I understood why he did not tell me.

We do not spend that much time together. I think that's partially my fault because of all the drama I have been going through. I guess he did not want to burden me which was wrong because relationships are about carrying each other's burden.

Now, I understand how Noah felt when I do not tell him stuff.

I politely dismissed myself from Red and continued working. When my shift finally ended I walked out of the diner with Brad beside me he did not look good. He was not his usually self, he was always smiling and care free but today he seemed gloomy.