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14. Morning sickness

It had been weeks since that mess with Justin. Work was busy but I just didn't have the energy. Tired all the time and then the sickness. The sickness that came with brushing my teeth in the morning to the smell of breakfast that filled the air as I walked past the Cafe in the Am. It wasnt just in the am it was during lunch in the cafeteria. I had no appetite and when I did think about food I got this sudden urge to just cry about it. When I wasnt feeling sick I was tired. Even going to bed early didnt help and soon I started to worry about that bug that was going around.

I went up to ER thinking it was the flu or something.

Dr Choi did his best to give me some hope as my symptoms didnt match the bug that was going around the hospital at the moment.

Sit tight and ill send a nurse in to run some tests.

I did as asked and soon after he came in with my results.

Shay you dont have the flu.

Ok I hope i haven't caught anything from here with that bug going around.

Well I wouldn't worry about that. Your pregnant. Dr Choi smiled thinking that it would be good news for me but it made me feel worse.

No, no I-I can't be pregnant. Your test is wrong you need to re test me. That can't be right.

I assure you its correct. So at least now you can start planning. Morning sickness doesn't always fall in the am and sometimes can last throughout the day.

How long do I have to feel that way.

It depends weeks maybe months. There have been instances where sickness can run throughout the pregnancy. We can provide medication to help with that. Right now drinking plenty of fluids and getting rest is important. I can recommend some information packets and you'll want to follow up with your gynecologist.

This was all too much. I couldn't even get past the part where I would be responsible for someone other than me besides my health and how I needed to proceed.

I was in shock and maybe a tad in denial. Forcing myself to avoid the thought. No they were wrong I just needed time. This wasn't happening to me. Then my heart dropped to my feet. Oh fuck Justin. Oh Fuck Hank.

Justin wasn't even in town at the moment. He was off on tour somewhere. He and olive settled somewhere for the army. What the hell was I gonna do.

I called left message for him to call me back. He left me hanging for two weeks of course. By the time He finally got back to me I had accepted the fact that I was pregnant and alone.

I need help getting rid of it Justin. Are you gonna help or should I take care of this on my own.

I'm 2 states away shay look ill call hank for money.

Hank!! No fucking way. He does not get to know this do you hear me Justin.

Look I don't want him to know either let me call him first for money I won't tell him why.

Justin

I recieved my dads call back finally after two days of waiting.  When he finally called I was on duty.  When he picked up on the other end a sudden rush of relief went through me.  My dad had always been there for me before.  Even when I had done the most stupid of things.  He always understood and this would be one of those times.

Hey dad I was hoping you could send me some money.  Few hundred just until I can i back to you.. can you help me out.

Are you in trouble again?

No I promise. We are all fine just something came up and I can pay you back later.

I'd like to know what for. Just tell me.

I promised I wouldn't.

Justin your gonna have to give me something.

I let out a deep breath I knew arguing wouldn't get me anywhere.. Fine. You want to know I fucked up again. Shay is pregnant and its mine. It happened and it was stupid. Total mistake so please she just needs money to get rid of it ok. I cant drop things here. I would but...

No ill take care of it but this shouldn't have happened. Well talk when you get back. Oh and Justin you gonna tell olive or am I?

I'll talk to her ok.

Shay

Shay there someone waiting to speak to you. Gabby said to shay as she turned to see hank sitting at the bar.

When she sees Hank she instantly felt sick.

What can I do for you hank?

We need to talk. You know what about.

He told you. She shook her head in disappointment.

You should have told me. I'll be here to pick you up after work.

I don't have a choice do I.

Not really.

When I walked outside Hank was standing against his car. He opened the door and waited for her to get inside.  Then he nicely shut the door and got in to drive.

It was quiet on the way. We drove up to a restaurant but I was feeling sick. We took some food to go and went to his place.

He started to put out onto the table.. You should eat.  He said sitting the cuisine in front of her before he took his seat.

I don't really feel like eating. The morning sickness is killing me.. In the am in the pm it never ends.

Justin said you want to get rid of it.

Yeah. Are you gonna help me. If not ill just handle it myself. I should have just done that in the first place.

You can always call me for help I want you to know that Shay.  Whatever happens but have you thought about keeping it?

Hmpht she laughed. That's funny.

I'm not laughing.

I can't take care of myself let alone be a mom. She started to tear up. I'm sorry my hormones are crazy I cry during commercials it will pass.

He handed her a tissue. You dont have to face this alone.

She scrunched up her forehead in response as if he were now trying to play tricks on her.

I'm scared.

Shay I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere. Please think about keeping it.. Thats my grandchild your carrying. He held her close wanting to comfort her.

I decided to have the baby for hank. I couldnt let him down now matter how I felt about it.

I want you to move in with me.  He said. You dont have to quit the bar but reduce the hours for me. Just until you feel better.

I decided to just go with it.

He held my hair as I puked. So attractive I groaned as I wiped away my mouth.

He just smiled. Remembering his wife when she was pregnant.

Here is some tea for the sickness and ginger works to.
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Its fine I have these I said shaking my script.
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Shay that could be dangerous for the baby.

No the doctors said that many woman take them and have healthy a pregnancy.

Yeah but those meds can cause side effects its not safe no matter what they say. Please just try the tea. It worked for Camille it can work for you to.

I agreed to let him help me. He was good at this. Better than I was.