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20-What if

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Lilith's POV
"Remember my warnings Lilith." Sidious spat down at me as I laid on the floor of the room that he asserted was mine.

I nodded weakly, "Yes, Master," I whispered low without moving, my body had become completely  overwhelmed with exhaustion.

He wasn't entirely confident in my plan, so he thought it was best to give me another.. lesson - is what he calls it. But the only thing I'm actually learning from these lessons is that his torture can always get worse, that the pain can always increase. He was trying to scare me into perfection, knowing my fear over his full potential will push me to be successful.

Without saying another word to me, he left the room. He had said he was leaving the station, claiming he had more important things to take care of than to 'babysit' me.

But I was grateful for his departure; I wasn't sure how much more of his torment I could've endured without my body completely giving out.

Is this really the life I chose? And if so, why?

I guess it really doesn't matter why anymore. I was here, and now I had no choice - not unless I wish to die.

I sighed with relief when I felt his darkened signature slowly drifting away from me. I eventually tried getting up to my feet, but was unsuccessful; I was too weak to move. So I did the next best thing, I fully laid down on the cold metal floor, and patiently waited for the exhaustion to pass. The cold surface was actually soothing, it cooled down my nerves that had felt as if they were burning.

I stayed on my back and closed my eyes, using this time to mediate so it wasn't entirely wasted. Plus I had some time to kill before that Senator does what I asked.

Sidious may not have any confidence, but I do. I'm on a station that disintegrates planets. She would be unwise to test me, not unless she wishes to see Naboo turn into nothing but ash.

After a few silent moments while I meditated; images of an event I faintly recognized began to slowly come to me, but they appeared disoriented and unclear. All I could make out was lava, smoke, and as strange as it sounds; I even felt pain. Internal pain, as if someone was suffering a great loss.

Curious about what I was experiencing; I placed my hands on my stomach, took a deep breath, and fully focused on what I believed to be one of my lost memories.

I used the force to control a platform that was floating above molten lava and came near the edge of a hill, my gaze was stuck on that man with the scar - Anakin, "It's over (y/n), I have the high ground."

"You underestimate me Anakin." I seethed while tightening my hold on the weapon in my hand. I bent my knees with a plan in place, to jump over, and cut through his neck while I landed.

I was in this memory, but I had no control over what was happening or what I was saying or thinking. It was as if I was experiencing it a second time; if what I'm seeing truly is something that came to pass.

Anakin shook his head slowly, pain flashed through his eyes, "Please don't try it." He begged, already knowing what I planned to do.

It was him, his pain is what I was feeling. But what did he lose? Did I kill someone dear to him?

Ignoring his warning; I jumped towards him, but before I was able to go through with my own plan - I felt a horrible burning pain, and saw the flash of a blue light glide across my face.