"I painted a picture of the things I wanted most to color in the darker side of all my brightest hopes but, there's a monster where you should be. So I'll paint you wings and set you free."
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Michael's POV
Rose has her head on my chest, and once I hear her begin to snore. I know it's safe to break down now. Slowly than all at once reality hit me. Rose deserves much better than me, there are people that can give her the entire damn world yet she decided to stay here with me.
And being the idiot I am I cheated on her, and I'm jealous and- there's so much that I've fucked up at. What will the future bring? Is Rose my future? I hope, but than again I want her to find someone better than me, there's always something wrong with me. I just want what is best for her.
Isn't that what love is? When you care about someone else's happiness more than you dare to care about your own.
After thinking for so long my head hurt, I finally decided j wasn't going to fall asleep any time soon. So I hop out of bed and granny guitar alongside a notebook.
I head downstairs and after finally creating a tune I liked, I added words and at about 5:00 am, everything has tied together and I had finally written a song that I've been anticipating to write.
I go back to bed and hide the journal in which I wrote songs, poems, you know sad stuff. And I cuddled up to Rose and held her close, breathing in her heavenly scent I drifted off into sleep.
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I wake up and here a muffled voice coming from the hallway, Rose was on the phone.
"I don't think he's okay...."
If only she knew.
"I'm worried."
You should be.
"Yeah, I will. I'll check."
Check what?
"Okay, bye see you later."
She walks into the room and sees that I'm awake.
"Good morning." She tells me, smiling.
"Good morning."
She comes to my bedside and kisses my cheek, she sits on the bed.
"Michael can I see your arms?"
No.
No.
No.
"No."
"Why not?"
"Because I don't want you to see."
"See what?"
Her voice cracks and I know she knows.
"Don't tell me you-" a tear slips from her eyes "why didn't you fucking tell me?"
"I-"
"You are such a hypocrite! You tell me not to but you can."
"You know what?"
She walks ink the bathroom and comes out with a razor blade.
"Here." She hands it to me and lifts up her sleeve.
"I can't."
"Do it."
"No."
"Either you do it or I will."
"I won't let you." Her eyes fill with tears and now she is full on sobbing.
"I thought you we-were okay."
"I am-"
"Obviously you aren't! I thought I- made you happy."
"You do!"
"No. I just-" she falls into my chest and cries into my shoulder. I didn't think this would affect her so heavily. I wonder how it will affect her.
"Baby, I love you and you make me happy. It's just I am not happy? You don't know Rose. You don't know and I don't want you to. It's terrible."
She pulls her face out of my chest and wipes away her tears.
"You don't trust me?"
"No, it's not that."
"Than why can't you tell me?"
"I wouldn't know how."
"Michael....I get it. You can keep it to yourself just stop this." She says as she grabs my arm and her hand goes across one of the open wounds carefully.
"I love you." I tell her, I grab her face and kiss her. Those lips, these lips that I feel pressing against mine are the only ones I'll even need. They are connected to her. She is everything. She is my everything.
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"We have to leave in 5 minutes to get there in time." I tell her, as I put my guitar in the case and go to turn on the car.
Sooner than later she is out the door and breathtaking as always. She is wearing my "5 Seconds Of Summer" shirt since she's listened to a couple of songs and she loved them so, why not?
She paired it with a black skirt and black converse. So cute. She gets into my red truck and we're off to Luke's house for band practice.
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After greeting Liz we head downstairs and everyone is already there.
"Hey guys." I tell them, as I take my guitar out of its case and sling it onto my shoulder.
"Hi." They all say together. Than they look up and see Rose.
"YAY YOU BROUGHT MY QUEEN." Calum says as he runs towards her and engulfs her into his arms.
"Hi Cal." Rose says, smiling.
"Hey babe." Luke says, sticking out his tongue at her.
"Hey" Ash says, giving her a heads up.
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We begin one of our songs "Beside You." And Rose's eyes never leave mine.
It was a trance, I'm whipped.
She was the one person who could make me stay, but what if just one person won't be enough?
I'm so selfish.
She loves me and I love her. Isn't that all we need in life?
What about loving yourself?
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Okay. This chapter was very hard to write because it hit very close to home so, I'm sorry it took so long :(
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Any ending predictions?
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MICHAEL IMAGINE. NOT A PART OF THE STORY
"I want to spend the rest of my days beside you." Michael tells you, he's now on one knee, holding a ring out to you.
"Yes!" You say happily and clasp your arms around his neck and kiss him sloppily
"I love you I love you I love yo-"
You are cut off by him kissing you again.
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