Finally See (Finally Book 1)

Chapter 15 - Rose

When I saw my sister standing in the middle of my fiancée’s living room, in the middle of the Christmas party, I nearly pass out from anger.

How the hell is she alive? She is dead, that is what mom and dad said, but then again, she was always their favorite. Even more so when they found out that I was blind, they acted like it was foreign for someone to be blind, and I went to a school for blind kids for six years until I got the hang of things and was able to go home.

And now as I am watching her I just want to kill her for making me think the she was dead for seven fucking years. When my dad was killed my mother blamed me for Tori leaving -and now I understand what she meant by leave and not die- and for dad being shot, like I could’ve done anything, I was blind.

Fuck my family, fuck them all. I go into the kitchen not wanting to deal with Tori right now, she is the last person I want to see, I knew she was my sister when I saw her because I found some pictures of her, in a shoebox, that I didn’t even know mom had, and I never told mom that I had found the shoebox or the pictures. Why, why did she have our parents tell me that she was dead? Well she is dead to me, I lost her when she had cancer.

When I go into the kitchen I find my mom and Xavier’s dad in there and they are kissing but they haven’t noticed me yet.

I just look at them, “Seriously?” I ask in frustration, what is going on with everyone, it’s like I stumbled into an alternate universe, where no one knows how to speak the truth and always does things they aren’t supposed to do, oh wait, it’s not an alternate universe, it’s life.

They both pull apart guiltily and then look over to me and Mom is glaring, and Dimitris looks ashamed. Good. He is Jill’s husband, he shouldn’t be kissing another woman in their own home, and at a fucking family Christmas party at that. I go into the kitchen a little further and that is when Jill and Xavier come into the kitchen, probably looking for me.

“You are just full of surprises, Mom.” I say.

Xavier and Jill both look confused, but I don’t care.

“First you practically disown me when you found out that I was blind, you blame me for Tori getting cancer, you blamed me for her leaving, you blamed me for dad’s death, and now you two are kissing? What is wrong with you?” I ask angrily, and Jill looks to Dimitris hurt.

“What is wrong with me? I have a daughter that was born blind, for six years I had to tell my friends that you were just staying at your grandparents until I was ready to have you back. Then Tori got cancer and you didn’t have the same bone marrow to help her…”

“Like that is my fault!” I yell out frustrated and cutting her off.

“No, but you were there when your father was shot, and you didn’t do a damn thing about it.”

“I was blind!” I yell at the top of my lungs and that is when more people come in, but I just keep on yelling. “What did you want me to do? I couldn’t see who robbed the bank and shot everyone except for me, you think I liked being blind for that, I was there, and I felt his blood splatter on to my face, I couldn’t do anything because of being blind and you always blame me for everything!” I am sobbing by the time I am done talking.

By then everyone is in the kitchen and watching us. A sharp pain shoots through my stomach, more so than it felt when the baby kicked, and I drop to my knees and moaning in pain with my arms crossed over my stomach. Xavier comes over to me and grabs me by my shoulders and pulls me to him and picks me up and then looks to my mom.

“I don’t know what is going on between you and Rose, but you are hurting her and the baby by stressing her out. Rose told me that after the wedding and after graduation, that she wanted to move down to the beach house to get away from being so stressed. And I don’t blame her for that because of what I just heard.” He looks to his dad, “and you, you are hurting Mom, kissing another woman in our own home. You two are just being really low with everything you are doing. If the baby is hurt in any way, I am blaming you two for it.” Xavier turns and walks out of the kitchen with me in his arms still moaning in pain.

“Come on, let’s get you to the hospital to make sure nothing is wrong.” Xavier says, and I nod my head and Jill and Destiny and Amie follow us. Xavier gently puts me into the car when we get to it and everyone else sits in the back and Xavier drives to the hospital.

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When we get to the hospital the nurse has me sit in a wheel chair and wait until I am called back because the pains have eased a little, but they are still there and every now and then I will get a good one that makes me moan in pain.

I look over to Jill as we are waiting, and she is quiet and is looking down at the floor. She heard me when I was yelling at my mom about her and Jill’s husband kissing in the kitchen.

“I’m sorry.” I say softly, they all look over to me, shocked, probably for apologizing.

“Oh, sweetie, it’s not your fault, I knew he was already having affairs with other people, your mom isn’t the first woman he has cheated on me with. I mean it still hurts and I already knew but,” she shrugs her shoulders, “I was just in denial about it, because I didn’t want it to be true.”

“Wait, Dad was already having affairs?” Xavier says with anger hidden in his voice.

“Yeah he was.” Jill says quietly.

“How come you didn’t tell me?” Xavier asks. I know he’s asking because he loves taking care of his mom, but she always tells me that even though he likes to protect her, she likes to protect him as well.

“Because, you didn’t need to know, and I didn’t want to ruin your relationship with your father.”

“What relationship, he never really paid any attention to me, not since I was eight and brought me to a baseball game on my birthday, but ever since then he’s never once hung out with me.”

“That was when he started his affairs.”

“Please don’t do this here.” I say, “I didn’t mean to get everyone mad, it’s just that I was already mad about finding out that Tori was still alive, and my mom and dad always chose her over me because of being blind. It’s one of the reasons why I wanted to do the surgery because I wanted my mom to actually care about me, we used to be close for a little while, but ever since my father’s death she has distanced herself so far that I don’t even know who I am looking at anymore half of the time.” I say quietly and they all look at me and Xavier puts his hand on my thigh and rubs his thumb on it.

“You don’t have to change for us, ever. You got that?” He asks gently. I smile and nod my head.

“Rosalina Sanchez!” A doctor calls out.

I unlock the wheels on the wheel chair and Xavier and Jill stands up and we go over to the doctor and Xavier is pushing my wheelchair. We follow the doctor and he has me move onto the wax paper covered chair and then asks me question. Some that seems irrelevant about what is going on, but what do I know, after all he is the doctor and I am not.

“I will be right back to get another doctor to do an ultra sound to make sure that there was no tearing.” He says and then leaves without saying anything else or letting us say anything

“A tear?” I ask, with fear evident in my voice and look between all of them.

"It's going to be okay." Xavier says, I know that he is also worried but us just trying to help calm me down.