Rare (satzu)

Chapter 9

Sana's pov

We got inside my dorm, it was slightly dark since I only turned on the lamp, I was dragging Tzuyu behind me.

We stopped in front of my bed "Stay here" I said and went out of the room and inside the bathroom grabbing Tzuyu's now clean clothes that she left earlier.

I took off my clothes and wore only her green hoodie it was above my knees but not too much, I took her sweatpants with me and walked back to the room

"Tzuyu" I called softly

Her eyes trailed up and down my body and she smiled and said "Isn't that mine?"

"Yeah, you mind?" She shook her head chuckling.

"Alright just take this since you're already wearing a hoodie anyway" I threw her the sweat pants and got out so she can change.

I knocked seconds later and she muttered "Come in"

I went in and she was fully changed I smiled and asked her "Do you want anything to drink?"

Tzuyu hummed in thought but I cut her off "Oh I know! Let's go make hot chocolate and cookies!"

She giggled asking me "Okay, you know how to?"

I got offended and slapped her shoulder "Hey! I can cook. I'm good"

"You're good?" She teasingly repeated my words.
I don't know if she said this innocently or if she means other things.

"I am." I said

She replied by ruffling my hair "You are."

I had an other fangirl moment, she took my hand leading me into the kitchen cause I was frozen in place.

We reached the kitchen and she pushed me inside "Don't stand there staring at me, start cooking!" She demanded and I've never been more encouraged in my life.

After checking some cupboards I told her while pouting "Uh, darling, I think I got too excited, we don't actually got all the ingredients for Cookies.

"I will make you some hot chocolate though okayy??" I told her assuringly while smiling brightly at her.

"Yeah sure, it's fine" Tzuyu said

I decided to steer up some conversation "So Tzuyu, what do you like to eat?"

"Me? I eat anything I'm not too picky with that. What do you like to eat?"

My mind thought so many other dirty things except the main point and I almost smirked but I just laughed and said "Me too, I love food."

I soon finished making the hot chocolate and grabbed our mugs going over to the couch.

We sat there sipping our drinks and chatting for a while, when we were done, she grabbed the mugs and got up saying "I will wash them for you"

"No, it's fine Tzuyu I can-"

"I know you can." She chuckled

"But I wanna help. You made it, I wash." Tzuyu said already standing at the sink. She finished washing and dried her hands.

"Arigatoo!" I told her, which means 'thank you' in my native language Japanese.

Tzuyu giggled and bowed respectfully. I giggled at her actions. We walked to my room and I went over to sit one the bed.

Leaning on the bed's headboard and beckoned for her to come to me, she sat close to me and I immediately cuddled into her which she laughed at.

I pouted playfully saying "What? You're warm Tzu"

She giggled and held me closer rubbing my shoulders "Better?" She asked looking down at me

I got warmer thanks to her embrace so I looked up at her and we stared at each other deeply.

I whispered "Yeah. Much better."

Tzuyu was studying my face as I studied hers not for the first time I always admired her beauty.

The long lashes, her big eyes, her pink lips and her soft skin. I just had to reach and touch it. So I did.

She raised her eyebrows slightly then calmed down and smiled at me.

Ugh, that smile, her dimples. I felt my heart race.

Tzuyu was making me feel things. Our little Tzuyu, like out of all those people, her.

I don't know what it was and I was probably overwhelmed by the feelings and this whole situation. I kept inching my face closer to hers.

She noticed and kept backing away slightly with a confused face. Even that looked cute, ugh.

So I just grabbed the back of her head to stop her from backing away from me and leaned all the way in and kissed her....Yeah. I wanted to kiss our maknae. I wanted it so bad and I just did it.

Tzuyu was frozen in her place, I moved my lips against hers wanting her to do the same but she wouldn't...

Soon she started pushing me away slowly and I wouldn't budge "Kiss me back Tzu" I whispered

Then I put my lips against hers again but again she wasn't moving.

"U-Unnie" She mumbled between kisses but I muffled her words by sucking her lips harder.

That's when I felt like a creep, forcing myself on her or something so I let go of her head slowly and backed away muttering "S-Sorry"

"I'm really sorry Tzu" I repeated but she was just looking down not able to look at me.

"Tzuyu?" I called her name.

"Tzuyu?" I called again.

"I...I'm going to my dorm." She got up hurriedly

"Good night" She muttered and practically run out the door.

I sighed loudly and crashed my face into the pillow muffling a scream.

Fuck. I thought and repeated it over and over in my head.

What if she tells the others?! 2yeon and Jihyo.

Ughhh! I couldn't sleep that day.

Tzuyu's pov

I'm...too naive when it comes to these things. I didn't know she was gonna do that when she came closer.

That was my first ever kiss, If I can even call that a kiss, I have never been in a situation like that and with someone that close to me.

I mean it's Sana and I have considered her a sister to me since almost 2 years now...

I was panicking outside her dorm but decided to walk back to mine instead of just standing there like a lunatic.

Plus I will get in trouble. So I started walking...

I brought my hand up to my still wet lips. I could still feel hers against them, the memory was still fresh in my mind.

I licked my lips then shook my head to get rid of the thoughts.

We did get very close to each other lately and I felt things with her. But new things were difficult for me to understand and adapt to.

I don't understand shit about how I feel or what I feel towards her, like to me it makes no sense, all of these things, feelings, crushes, love, relationships.

And I have told her that so she should've known this would be too much for me.

I was getting too confused and my head started to hurt. I decided to drop it and I walked inside my dorm very quietly.

Thankfully, they were asleep. I drank some water to clear my head and tiptoed to my bed and tried to go to sleep...but I don't think I will succeed.