IN LOVE WITH YOU [SLOW UPDATES]

16

~NAINA'S POV~

"We have to talk."

Ankit's message had popped on my screen and ruined my entire mood. A gush of anger filled my body and my heart thumped with anxiety. Once I reached my room, I texted him back.

Me: What is it?

Ankit: How could you forget? It's Ridhima's birthday! You know how upset she is because you didn't wish her!

Me: I forgot

I lied. I had remembered her birthday all along, but I didn't want to wish her.

Ankit: You have changed...

You should be the last person to say that, Ankit.

I didn't bother replying to his last message and texted a HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Ridhima on WhatsApp. Her smiling face in the profile picture filled me with disgust.

Ridhima: At last, you got time to wish this old friend. I thought people never forget their old pals when they find new, but I was mistaken.

Typical Ridhima, always whining.

Me: It's not like that. Sorry, I forgot.

Ridhima: That's okay. You know, Ankit said he would breakup with me because he feels so guilty about all this. He thinks the rift between us is all his fault. And I don't want this to happen. After so long, I feel happy. Can't you just accept our relationship?

I sat on the bed, gritting my teeth with anger, frustrated with my life.

Me: Am I your grandma that you are asking me to accept your relationship? I already said, do whatever you want, I won't interfere. What more do you want from me?

Ridhima: What is wrong with you? Just talk like nothing changed between us. After so long, I have the happiness that I always wanted. Can't you do this for me?

I flung my cellphone on the sheets, burned my face in the pillow and stomped my feet on the bed.

Why only I have to think of their happiness? Why don't they think about mine?

My cellphone chimed about five times. I checked it to see a line of messages.

Ridhima:
Don't you want us to be happy?
I know you loved him a lot, but for once, open your heart and think about me!
We are so perfect for each other!!
Please Naina, can't you do this little thing?
Where are you?
Why aren't you replying?
....

Me: Okay, I'll talk to him. Do whatever you want! Maybe get married! But don't forget to invite me, okay? I have to eat at the buffet!

Ridhima: Why are you acting like this?

I didn't reply. I typed "I will talk to Ridhima like before. Don't breakup with her," and sent it to Ankit.

I switched off my cell phone and lay on my bed, looking at the ceiling, and remembered the time when Ankit had informed me—he and Ridhima were dating. The heart ache I had that night almost made my dry eyes shed tears. 

Why is my heart so weak?  I should forget that how much he meant to me and how badly I hoped to get back with him one day.

I turned on my cellphone, deleted my WhatsApp conversations and searched on google- What to do if your ex is dating your best friend? Most of the websites and answers on Quora were preaching about forgiveness and big heart. My eyes drooped as I read all of them one by one and felt guilty of being too narrow minded.