IN LOVE WITH YOU [SLOW UPDATES]

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PHI's POV

"It was good.. but I wouldn't say special," she finally replied.

Honestly, I felt bad. Eventhough, I didn't know her for a very long time, I found her special. And the fact that she didn't think of me in the way made me hopeless for a moment. Was I expecting too much?

"So, the kiss at the party.. would you kiss Omer too in similar circumstances?" I asked hopeful to get a reply that wouldn't make any more sad then this.

"No I don't think so, I guess you're taking it the wrong way. Don't jump into conclusions like that," she said taking the last sip from her bottle.

"I don't understand. Was it casual for you?"

"I'll get another bottle, you want one?" she said getting up lazily from the chair.

I did not reply.

She didn't even bother to give me an answer. Was I that insignificant to her? I looked around, the shimmering lights which felt so pretty few minutes ago were now stinging my eyes. The peppy music which I was enjoying felt too loud now. I turned towards the counter. She was chatting with the bartender now and then she pointed towards me, had a few laugh with him and returned to the table.

"I brought one for you," she said and tapped gently on my shoulder.

"What was so funny with the bartender?" I asked with the obvious irritation in my voice.

"Don't act like a boyfriend now, will you?" She replied with stern voice.

Her reply made me even more furious, I was gritting my teeth but didn't say anything. I planned to book a cab and get back to my room as soon as possible.

"He said I must have a good appetite as I ordered two beers; I replied two beers isn't a big thing but for now I'm here with a friend and it's for him. Happy now?" She said after eyeing me for a full minute.

"Phi! Are you judging me because I asked for the kiss? It was a spontaneous decision. I felt good dancing with you so I just said it. I'm sorry if I hurt you in any way," she said the last sentence with a struggle while my eyes were fixated on the table. I don't know why but I sensed some kind of conflict in her words.

"Forget it, I didn't know people are so casual about these matters. I feel like a fool now!" I said looking at her for few seconds but than again drifted my eyes to other directions.

She didn't say anything for a while and I started observing the people around with a heavy heart.

"Hey, I'm sorry. I'm just not looking for anything serious in a relationship," she paused for a moment," I like you, we can be together but maybe we can just keep it casual," she said slightly placing a hand on mine.

Slightly, I pulled my hand away from the table.

"I just don't want to be in a serious relationship. I've been in one before and it was a bad experience for me. I don't want to be in one at least for some time."

I looked at her and I caught a slight glimpse of pain in her eyes. And suddenly all the fuming thoughts I had vaporized. I rubbed my head with my fingers. I was being a dickhead.

"You said too much, idiot!" I thought.

"I'm sorry, I think I spoke too much. I...I don't know what to say now," I said with a flicker in my voice. My elbows rested on the table and my fingers were still rubbing my forehead. I let out a loud sigh.

"Its okay. Why are you overthinking so much? It's been just weeks since we met, we can always figure out what to do. And I feel this is my fault too, I should have clarified at that start."