May 2002
Jax Teller was standing in the Teller-Morrow Automotive Repair Shop office when he heard a car pull onto the lot. He walked out the door to see his mother's black escalade. Oh Jesus...This can't be good.. She looks wired up. He thought as he inched closer to the woman. "Hey Ma, what's up?" He kissed her cheek and stood beside her.
"Guess who I just ran into." Jax looked at his mother curiously and waited for to tell him. "Hanna!"
Jax eyes grew wide as he heard the name. He hadn't heard from her in a long time and he was sure Hanna had a reason for it. She normally did.
She went to San Francisco four years ago to go to college; she promised him she would come back once she finished school and graduated. They were best friends, had been close since they were kids. She grew up in the club too. Her dad was a founding member and her brother was a member, just like Jax. That wasn't what brought Jax and Hanna close. It was Jax's best friend, Hanna's brother, Opie Winston.
Opie never knew about the one and only time Hanna and Jax were together. They were both drunk and they never talked about it afterwards. Opie always knew something was up between them though.
"Seriously? Did you talk to her?" Jax asked eagerly, almost too eager to know more about his old best friend.
Gemma knew how much he missed her, she knew what Hanna meant to her son. Gemma loved the thought of Jax and Hanna being together. Even though out of the four years Hanna had been away, Jax only saw her once. Almost a year ago. "Yeah, she's coming by today. I told her everyone would be here." Jax smiled.
Jax didn't talk to her once in the time she was away but he didn't mean to just avoid her all those years.
He saw the blonde beauty walk into the clubhouse and he froze completely. He watched her greet everyone, hugging them and kissing their cheeks before she spotted him. He couldn't move, she just looked so damn beautiful.
She walked towards him, smiling the entire time. "Long time no see, stranger. Actually, long time no talk too. Guess I don't rank high enough on your importance scale to even get a phone call." She smirked at him, cocking an eyebrow.
Jax didn't say anything, looking at her beautiful face proved to be too much for him and his feelings so he adverted his eyes past her. Even though it had been four years, Hanna was still upset about the way Jax had been treating her; as if she wasn't good enough so he had to simply throw away their lifelong friendship and ignore her. "Ok, I'm still invisible to you... Cool Jax."
She walked away from him and straight outside. She knew everyone would stay inside as long as any women were inside. Hanna had loved Jax for a long time, regardless of the things that happened in the past four years, she still had love for the foolish man. She hoped things would be different since so much time had passed and he would have matured. Clearly she was wrong, and all of it had her thinking back to her last nights in San Francisco.
"Hey, I'm sorry." He grazed her back as he walked past her, pulling her out of her thoughts. He stood in front of her and smiled. The same smile that could make any woman weak in the knees for him, she was immune to it.
"What for? Not calling or being a dick to me for all these years?" Hanna watched as Jax sat down beside her on the picnic table.
Jax frowned. "I have my reasons for everything, Hanna. Don't get all pissy. You never cared before so what's the deal now?"
She scoffed. "It's hard to love someone and watch them love everyone else. Excuse me for trying to move on." Hanna crossed her arms over her chest.
After a few minutes of silence, she stood up and walked back inside. She always ran to the roof when she didn't want to be around the club's madness and that's exactly where she was headed. She knew Jax would know where she was going but she wanted to get away even if it was for only a second.
Jax followed her to the roof; standing behind the air conditioning unit that she was sitting on, he opened his mouth to talk but she interrupted him. "Jax, you don't get it... I've loved you for a long time but I never let those feelings show. You mistakenly had sex with me when you were drunk and you then went on to pretend like it never happened." Hanna watched as the blonde biker come to stand in front of her. "How exactly do you want me to act? You were my first, Jax and you hurt me, making me feel like I wasn't enough, like I wasn't good at all." Jax crashed his lips into hers, wanting her to shut up, wanting to make her feel what he felt for her.
Deepening the kiss, he pulled her closer to him. Jax felt her small hands running through his hair, pulling at the ends of his hair. He wanted her, he had wanted her since the night she left and he was finally getting what he wanted.
Hanna pulled away and whispered, "I need to go. This will only end up hurting me more." She stood up, fixed her dress and climbed down the ladder.
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"You seen Hanna?" Opie said, walking up to Jax. Opie grabbed a beer and sat on the bar stool.
Jax nodded his head and took a sip of his beer. "I always knew how to get her to leave."
Opie laughed, "I'm ok with you guys being together if that's why you keep backing off. But man, you're hurting her more by doing all that shit you keep doing."
Jax nodded his head and spoke softly, "Where is she?"
Opie smiled at his best friend, "The field. Probably trying to get you off her mind." Opie watched Jax walked outside and straight to his bike. He put on his helmet, got on the Dyna and drove out of the lot.
He pulled onto the dirt road that led to the field of purple flowers, dandelions and tall trees. He saw her car and pulled up next to it. Parking the Dyna, he walked to the row of trees across from her car and his bike. "How many guys were you with in San Francisco?" He saw her laying on a blanket on the ground and he stood in front of her.
Hanna sat up and stared at the tall blonde biker. "One. We dated for a while... Couldn't get you out my mind so I broke up with him."
Jax spoke softly, "Did you fuck him?" She nodded her head and he scoffed.
"What about you, V-fucking-P? How many girls did you fuck?"
He smirked, "Too many to count." She stood up and slapped his face.
"You're fucking ridiculous." She pushed past him but turned around, yelling, "I fucked him once and it was fan-fucking-tastic." She walked closer to him. "I'm not staying in Charming. I'm going back to San Francisco. But know this, I was meaningless to you and that's exactly why I'm going back. I made the mistake of falling for you, thinking it would be ok. Trust me, you don't have a thing to worry about that, I'm not even here to stay." Hanna walked away before Jax could say anything else. Before she reached her car, she turned around to look at him one more time.
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