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(3): A Perplexing Chatmate

"Dythalia Eru Tusias" bigkas ko sa pangalan kong nakita ko sa screen.

Kasabay pa no'n ang paghangin ng malakas at muling nag lakbay ang kilabot sa buong katawan ko.

Ramdam na ramdam ko ang lamig at ang pagtayo ng mga balahibo ko, ang paghina ng tuhod ko, ang pag nginig ng mga kamay at bibig ko at bawat kabog ng dibdib ko.

P-p-paano?

Shi: You'll never know if you won't take the effort of knowing. :)

Lalo akong kinilabutan. Nanlaki rin ang mga mata ko. Gusto kong maiyak. Gusto kong mapaupo sa takot at kilabot. It took me a lot of effort to gulp. Isang lunok lang hirap na hirap na ako?

Shi: Confabulate with me, Dyth. :)

Hindi ko talaga maintindihan, gusto kong maiyak. Humugot ako ng lakas at dahan dahang nag simulang maglakad patungo sa bedside table. Maingat akong umupo sa gilid ng kama ko. Ang kaliwang kamay ko ay nakahawak sa tuwalya kong nakatapis parin sa'kin samantalang ang kanang kamay naman ay kinuha ang gadget mula sa mesa.

DyE: Who are you?

Shi: Finally. :) Before we start our conversation, push your fear aside first.

Kinagat ko ang ibabang labi ko at ilang beses kumurap bago pumikit ng mariin at lumunok.

Ibinaba ko muna ang gadget at tumayo para mag bihis. Bumalik din naman ako sa pag upo sa gilid ng kama ko. Humugot muna ako ng hangin at dahan dahang ibinuga ito habang nakapikit bago ko kinuha muli ang gadget.

DyE: How did you know I was in dread? How can I push away my fear if I don't even know how you came to know the things happening around me, the things I'm doing, the things I'm saying and what I feel when you're not even around? You even know my name. My full name! So how am I not supposed to feel terrified?

Shi: Hahahaha! Easy, Dythalia. Just forget about it. Just think of me as a normal person.

DyE: A normal person? How am I supposed to do that? How am I supposed to forget all of those when you won't stop bugging me?!

Shi: Okay. A person with powers, then.

DyE: I don't believe in powers.

Shi: Do you believe in God?

DyE: Of course.

Shi: Do you see God?

DyE: No. But somehow yes--through His works.

Shi: It doesn't mean that if you can't see powers, they don't exist. You can believe in them through their works.

DyE: And one of those is this? You knowing things about me?

Shi: Let's just put it that way. Just have a confab with me like any other person. Like a person you just knew or something?

Bumuntong hininga ako at humiga. At least medyo naging normal na ang paghinga ko at ang pintig ng puso ko.

DyE: Okay.

Shi: Does your username stand for Dythalia Eru? I like it. Dye. Sounds like die.

Kumunot ang noo ko. Muling namuo ang kaba sa dibdib ko. Kinalma ko muna ang sarili ko at humugot ng hininga bago mag reply.

DyE: Yes, it stands for Dythalia Eru. How about you? What does your username stand for? Your name?

Shi: My name sounds like your nickname or the abbreviation of your full name.

DyE: How about your username?