toxic | joonas porko

6. "No name, no face, no nothing"

When Joonas entered the studio his smiley face suddenly changed to a worried one.

"You guys are alright? Why are you looking at me like that?" Oh, the thing was they were all looking at Joonas like they are gonna kill him soon.

"You are late to the practice!! For forty-fucking-five minutes!!"

Joel angrily put his phone down and turned his gaze to the band member he shares his birthday with.

"Well, I got distracted a little..." said Joonas, nervously scratching back of his neck.

"But we can start now since I am here and fully yours."

Joonas sent a kiss into the air to his direction and this time Joel just rolled his eyes at him and one by one they went to grab their instruments.

But Olli took his time and nudged Joonas' arm before grabbing his bass.

"Does that distraction have a name?"

When Olli winked at him Joonas immediately got what he meant with that.

"Oh no... I am afraid, she hasn't any. At least, I don't know."

"What the hell? How?"

Joonas opened his mouth to tell him that he still hasn't managed to learn his little stalker's name but the two noticed that they are getting death glares from the others.

"You are gonna tell me about it later!"

06:37 PM

"You are a fucking loser, Porko! Didn't even manage to get her name?!"

Niko laughed while drinking his beer but Joonas wasn't in the mood to get drunk. He was in the mood to tell guys about her more.

"She insists on not giving any personal detail, okay? It is not my fault! She is a tough one!"

It was silent in the studio for a second when all of them seem to think about a way to get her to tell him more about herself.

"Isn't it weird that you are still talking to her? I mean she is a stalker."

Aleksi hesitated to share his opinion about the situation at first but after a bottle or two beer he finally found the courage.

"Yes, it is weird. And I know that. It's just I don't know what it is but there is something in me. Something that wants to text her more. Wants to talk with her for hours. Especially, after discovering she is not Santeri or Mikko..."

They all laughed at the joke he made to lighten up the mood but deep down, Joonas, himself, was just thinking about that 'something'.

"I'd just block her."

When Tommi said that others turned to look at his carefree face expression. The drummer shrugged his shoulders in response.

"What? You guys are crazy. No name, no age, no face, no nothing. Okay, she was smart enough to ger you to respond her texts but to keep texting her is just another level of madness!"

That moment Joonas sighed and start staring blankly at the tag on his beer bottle. "Maybe, he was right after all." He thought to himself. "I should probably just stop talking to her." But the question was: will he be able to stop talking to her?

00.57 AM

emogirl02: someone hasn't texted me all day

emogirl02: where the hell are you

emogirl02: is this because of the thing that happened this morning?

emogirl02: i am sorry if it is so

joonasbc: hey

emogirl02: hey!! finally!!!

joonasbc: sorry

joonasbc: i was at the studio whole day

emogirl02: oh okay

emogirl02: everything alright?

joonasbc: no actually

joonasbc: like everything is alright but

joonasbc: i don't think that i should keep talking to you anymore

joonasbc: alright, it was fun and all

joonasbc: but i can't do this

joonasbc: i haven't seen your face

joonasbc: i don't know your name

joonasbc: nor your age

joonasbc: i don't know anything about you

joonasbc: and the fact that you can just stare out of your window right into my bedroom

joonasbc: creeps me out

joonasbc: we should stop this

emogirl02: okay

joonasbc: just okay?

emogirl02: yeah okay

joonasbc: uhmm

joonasbc: i guess that's it then

joonasbc: i hope you won't just screenshot all these texts and make it public

emogirl02: no, joonas

emogirl02: do not worry

emogirl02: i won't do anything like that

joonasbc: okay thanks

joonasbc: goodbye

joonasbc: emogirl02

emogirl02: goodbye joonas

When he put down his phone, earlier he imagined the moment like he was going to relax and get all these thoughts out of his head but he didn't feel any of them. Instead he felt empty.

For a moment, she wished that she would feel empty. She had all these thoughts going through her mind.

"Why did he decide to stop texting suddenly? He was in the good mood this morning. What did I do? Should I text him? Maybe I should text him. Or I should tell him something about me. No, no, no! It will make him think I will tell him something about me every time he walks away. But this way I'd lose him. Should I just let him go? Or should I get out of the house, cross the street and knock on his door? What am I going to tell him? "I am that emogirl?" Fuck, no! I can't face him! If I had the courage, I wouldn't start this texting game in the first place anyways. Only if I had the courage..."

Her wish was fulfilled that moment. She started to feel empty just like her texting friend.

"Fuck," she thought, "it was my only chance and now I lost it. I lost him."

That was the time she was still not aware of the fact that she was closer to him that she could even imagine in her pretty little dreams.

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