toxic | joonas porko

21. "But I am scared to be alone"

When Joonas arrived at the studio, there was nobody inside, so he just went to throw himself to the couch mumbling.

"I. Fucking. Hate. My. Life."

"Easy there, Porko! You sound just like Joel."

Tommi joked making everyone laugh while stepping inside one by one. Well, pretty much everyone but Joonas Porko.

"Don't say Joel to me!"

He huffed, slowly changing his position so others can also sit down.

"Did he fuck you last night and leave early in the morning or what is that hate towards him today?"

Niko high fived Olli, as they were laughing like crazy while Joonas was staring at them like he was disgusted.

"Could you please shut the fuck up or do you want me to make you? Because I'd gladly do it!"

They immediately stopped laughing as they noticed how he was not in the mood even a little bit.

Aleksi knew about what was going on since Evelina told him about everything last night, so he cleared his throat before handling Joonas a mug of coffee he just made.

"Did you find Valeria? Where has she been all night?"

Others were looking at them both with a confused looks on their faces.

"Did you lose her somewhere? What do you mean 'did you find Valeria'?"

Joonas did not even look at Olli in the face as he was asking a question but kept looking at her guitar which was in front of him.

"We had a fight. I might have kinda kicked her out..."

"Kinda kicked her out? What the fuck?"

Niko slaped him in the head without even having a clue about the thing that pushed Joonas to his limits.

"Joonas, you are the hardest person to get mad in this world. Let alone, being mad at Valeria... What did she do?"

He opened his mouth to answer Olli but the words did not come out of his mouth. Aleksi noticed that and put his hand on his bandmember's shoulder.

"Is she at least safe?"

Joonas just nodded his head, sipping on his coffee.

"I went nuts last night. I got out looking for her in that rain. It was almost fucking midnight. I could not sleep all night, thinking about where she could have been... I texted that narcissist piece of shit asking if he saw her anywhere. He said he did not!"

He could not help himself but stood up to walk around the room as others were watching his every single movement.

"Then I saw her coming out of his house this morning... With him following her... Fuck! I am gonna lose my mind!"

Niko immediately stood up to walk up and grab his arm to prevent him from going back and forth around the studio.

"Porko! Please, do not tell me that you think they fucked or something! I am sure Joel just wanted to help her. He probably see her just as a friend or I dont know... Maybe even a little sister..."

Tommi let out a chuckle while playing air drum with the sticks in his hands.

"Joel? A pretty girl? And seeing her as a sister? Is it already 1st of April or did you just decide to be a clown?"