𝐁𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐞 || 𝗷. 𝗺𝗮𝘆𝗯𝗮𝗻𝗸

-27- 𝐁𝐨𝐧𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐞 𝐁𝐫𝐚𝐰𝐥𝐬 -27-

I was laying curled up in a ball in my bed as the first rays of sunlight shined into my room.

I didn't sleep at all last night.

I was right.

My parents did go back to Charleston.

Without me.

My room still looked and smelled the exact same as I had left it two months ago.

This was my first time back here in two months.

I had been trying to avoid coming back here as much as I possibly could.

A part of me was hoping that my parents were still here.

They were just waiting here for me to realize that I needed them.

That I loved them.

But the harsh reality was they had actually gone back to Charleston a week prior and had no intention of coming back to get me.

I wasn't going home.

I wasn't going to prove to them that they were right.

But the truth of the matter is that they were entirely right.

About everything.

I was putting out too much for these boys.

I had basically just destroyed my whole entire life back home just for them.

And part of me regretted even coming back to the Outer Banks in the first place.

I hadn't been to school or work since I had left Charleston and I haven't even been talking to my friends.

It was like I was basically ghosting everyone.

Which I didn't give a shit about.

After the events from yesterday I really couldn't go back to the Château.

I was so mentally shaken up that I had just decided to call an uber back to the beach house.

Which is how I ended up here.

Sarah had gone home to be with her family and John B, Kie, and Pope went back to the Château.

JJ insisted on staying with me but I really didn't want his company but he wouldn't stop begging so I agreed to let him stay.

I sat up pushing my comforter off of my legs.

JJ was asleep on the floor his blond hair wild as his snores filled up the quiet room.

I looked at him longingly as his long blond eyelashes were perfect set on his lower lash line.

I let out a yawn before laying back against my bed and just staring up at the ceiling.

So many thoughts were running through my head as I just laid back stiffly.

JJ stirred before sitting up and stretching.

He cautiously got up and looked over at me thinking that I was still sleeping.

"Good morning, J" I say turning my head to face him.

He lays his head on the edge of my bed looking at me longingly.

"Good morning, Attie" the blond haired boy replies softly.

I stared into his blue eyes longingly.

I really just wanted him to kiss me at this point.

I wanted him to pin me down and kiss me until I couldn't speak.