Astral Lovers

CHAPTER 14

WARNING

This chapter contains detailed sex scenes if you are not comfortable with this topic please don't read.

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Lily POV

As soon as we reach the Tower Natasha, without mincing words, grabs me by the arm to drag me away with her.
"You'll see we'll be super hot tonight, they will drool for us"
I laugh out loud at her words.
“See you in the lobby at 7:30.Don't be late gentlemen” screams the redhead to the two men who are now looking at us as if we come from another planet.
I turn to Steve with an amused apologetic smile as Nat continues to talk about a dress, she thinks will make my handsome Captain's heart stop.
Steve smiles back at me, his wonderful baby blue eyes shine like lapis lazuli.

Now I am standing in front of Natasha's door, wearing only a bathrobe and my hair is wrapped in a large towel.
I knock and after a few moments a gorgeous Natasha opens the door wearing only a sexy lingerie set that take your breath away.
Her panties, if I can call them that, are just a tiny piece of black lace and her generous breasts are wrapped in tangles of lace and silk.
I would sell my soul to the devil to have her self-confidence.
I look away from her body with my cheeks on fire.
Natasha moves and laughing gestures me to enter.
"Lily you can look at me, I'm not naked" she continues to laugh.
"Sorry you are so...so...Barnes will have a heart attack!" I exclaim laughing.
"I too would like to have all this confidence in myself" I say.
I sigh, trying to mask the real sorrow in my words.
I often think I wish I could be a little sexier but I just don't think I'm capable of it.
Natasha immediately notices my sad look.
"What happens?If I make you uncomfortable…”
“No Nat, don't worry.It is not for this...” I point to her body with a wave of my hand, interrupting my friend.
"It's just that Steve does nothing but remind me how kind and sweet I am and how much he loves me for it but...but sometimes I wish he would tell me...I don't know...forget it, let's get ready before we're late" I whisper embarrassed but obviously Nat does not drop the subject in this way.
"Lily what happens?" she asks politely, grabbing my wrist before I can turn around.
I sigh and with extreme difficulty I try to expose my perplexities to her.
"I would also like to be sexy in Steve's eyes.I wish he would look at me too the way Bucky looks at your body every time you walk into the same room as him”
Natasha raises an eyebrow.
“But Steve already does!That guy one of these days will die of self-combustion” laughs my friend heartily.
"Really?"
"Oh sweetheart believe me when I tell you that that man is waiting for fuck you properly"
I blush violently at her words.
"You believe it?" I whisper with a mixture of embarrassment and hope.
Natasha grabs me by the shoulders.
"Lily, that man is crazy for you, he's just more reserved than Bucky.Less cheeky"
I hang from her lips as she continues to speak.
“Steve is more of a gentleman than Bucky but that doesn't mean he doesn't want to fuck the shit out of you.He's just too polite to reveal it so openly”
She takes me by the hand and makes me sit in a chair in front of a large mirror.
I observe her face through it, her eyes meet mine and a sweet smile is painted on her lips.
“And don't forget that everything is new to him, just like it is to you.The first and last time he had anything to do with a woman was in the 40s, it's normal that his way of approaching women is a bit old school.If you then add the fact that he has never...he has never been physically with a woman, you understand why he is embarrassed”
I stare at Natasha with my mouth open, I don't think I understand her words.
"Steve...is Steve still virgin?" I ask incredulously.
How can such a wonderful man, not only physically, have never felt a physical attraction towards someone else strong enough to push him to have sex?
It's hard for me to believe it.
"Oh c’mon!" Nat replies.
"You really didn't know?"
I look at her through the mirror and shrug my shoulders, she laughs and begins to free my hair from the towel.
“Steve places a lot of importance on emotional bonds.In his life it was only Peggy and you.And I don't think there will ever be anyone else”
“You forget Sharon” I reply.
Just at the thought of her I feel anger taking over my thoughts.
Natasha snorts.
“Please Lily don't be absurd!He just exchanged a kiss with that arrogant stupid bitch"
I laugh at what she called her but I immediately get serious again.
The redhead behind me is too focused on my hair that she doesn't notice my umpteenth change of mood.
She begins to dry my hair, with the help of a brush and hairdryer she manages to transform my indomitable curls into soft and shiny waves that fall sensual on my shoulders.
I try to relax and get rid of bad thoughts but I fail miserably.
"Nat?" I call her in a sad voice.
Our eyes meet in the mirror.
"Tell me" my friend replies, putting down her work tools and giving a final touch to my hair with her expert fingers.
“Do you think I'm Peggy's replacement?What I mean is do you think Steve will ever love me like he loved her or is he just settling for me?"
Natasha sighs.
“Lily, Steve loves you”
“I know he loves me” I admit sadly.
“But in the end I'll never be Peggy.I will find myself competing with her ghost all my life.I don't want to be his second choice”
Natasha moves in front of me and kneeling at my height she grabs my hands.
"Forget about it.Steve loved Peggy it's true but now…now you are his whole world.Not a mere replacement”
We stare at each other for a moment and then Nat starts talking again.
“If I can give you some advice, talk about this with him.Do not drag this weight into your heart because in the long run it will wear out your soul"
"What if I don't like his answer?"
I know it's stupid to think this.
After everything Steve has done for me.
I do not doubt his love, I'm just afraid of not being enough to him and that over time he will notice.
I feel like I am investing so much in this relationship that if things ever go wrong I will be more than destroyed.
I sigh sadly.
“Don't worry!You think only  about the evening that awaits you, try to enjoy all his attention and don't think about anything else.I'm sure it will be fine”
Natasha grabs a beauty case and starts pulling out all kinds of brushes and make-up.
She begins to work on my face.
“I see the way he looks at you Lily.Such intense love is rare.Love at first sight is rare" she smiles at me and then she tells me to close my eyes and relax while she works her magic on me.
I smile.
Thank goodness I have a friend like her.
I try to relax my mind but a thought makes space overwhelmingly among all the others, I take advantage of the moment to ask Nat a question that embarrasses me a lot.
Having my eyes closed will help overcome the embarrassment in my gaze for my question.
"Do you think it will happen tonight?"
"What are you talking about?"
I hear Nat answering me in a distorted voice as if her mouth is full of something.
I cautiously open my eyes and see the redhead in front of me with a brush between her lips and a focused gaze while using another brush she is mixing two shades of foundation to recreate the perfect color for my complexion.
"Sex.Do you think Steve expects to have sex tonight?"
I hope she doesn't notice the tremor in my voice.
“Steve doesn't expect anything.I am convinced that he desires it but I know that he would never put you under pressure for it.The real question is another" Natasha smiles slyly.
"Do you want it?"
I answer without even thinking about it.
"Of course I want it"
"You want it but?"
"But I'm scared" I admit.
“Afraid it will hurt.He looks...he seems to have a big...you know”
I laugh nervously, blushing.
Nat joins in with my laugh.
"Oh darling believe me if I tell you I understand you"
I raise an eyebrow not understanding the meaning of her answer.
“Did you see Steve…”
“No.No no no.Oh my God no!Don't jump to conclusions” she replies, raising her hands in front of her.
“Before you think badly…no, I've never seen Steve naked.I mean that Bucky is also very, very big and honestly, despite having had a few partners before him, I too was terrified of having sex with him"
I listen carefully.
"I will not lie to you Lily, it will hurt a little but I swear to you that with time and practice...oh baby you will not be able to do without it"
We both burst out laughing.
“You just have to relax and most importantly you have to drive him.You have to tell him what you like and if he does anything that makes you uncomfortable stop him right away.Don't be afraid or ashamed.Remember that even he won't know what you like.Indulging him will not help you on the contrary it will make you hate every moment of this very important moment”
I think of Nat's words and I wonder if I will ever be able.
She looks at me as if she could sense the nature of my thoughts.
"Lily don't overthink, everything will be for the best"
My friend reassures me.
I smile at her without speaking, I'm too nervous to do that.
Natasha fumbles for a few more minutes on my face and then applies a veil of lipstick to my lips.
"Ok, here we are" she exclaims excitedly.
She turns the chair where I am sitting towards the mirror and as soon as I look up, I remain dumbfounded.
The woman who looks at me in the mirror cannot be me.
A perfect line of eye liner makes my big dark eyes even deeper and the lashes are long, almost mesmerizing.
The perfect and brilliant complexion, red and shiny cheeks due to the blush.
And finally the full lips colored with a sinful red that makes them sensual as I had never seen them before.
"You're perfect.Steve will go crazy!"
"You believe it?" I reply breathlessly.
“You will thank me by calling your daughter like me”
I laugh heartily.
“Really, Romanoff?I think you're running a little too fast”
“You're so naive Lily…I'll give you three years at the most.Steve won't waste time getting you pregnant"
"Nat!!!" I reproach her but without being able to help it I burst out laughing.
We smile at each other for a few more seconds and then Natasha walks over to her bed grabbing her dress.
“Let's hurry up or we'll be late”
She wears a pair of nude stockings, then slips into her dress and I am mesmerized by her beauty.
Her curves are wrapped in a simple red sheath dress with three-quarter sleeves.
Her bateau neckline leaves her shoulders uncovered, her generous breasts on display.
She grabs a pair of black décolleté with a vertiginous heel and puts them on without any difficulty.
She quickly checks herself in the mirror giving a final arrangement to her hair wisely collected on the nape of her neck with a few curls that fall gently on her face.
Any man would lose his mind for her.
Bucky is truly a lucky man to have her love.
“Nat you are beautiful.I have no words” I sincerely compliment my friend.
She smiles at me, then I see her rummaging in her closet.
She comes out with a pile of clothes that she leaves in my hands.
"Come on!Go to the bathroom and change.I'll wait for you here” Natasha urges me but I remain stuck in place.
I look at the clothes in my hands, then I look at the woman in front of me and then at the clothes again.
My gaze goes back and forth a couple more times.
“No way Romanoff.No way!"
I drop the clothes I should wear on the bed and cross my arms in front of my breasts.
"I love you and I thank you for everything but I will never wear anything like that" I tell her, indicating the bed with a nod.
"Why not?That dress is perfect for you, you will be amazing"
"I'm not you Natasha.This dress will be ridiculous on me”
Nat sighs and rolls her eyes.
"Don't be absurd" she scolds me lovingly.
“You will be beautiful.And sexy.Isn't that what you wanted?Do you want to go on your first date with the man of your dreams with pants and ballet flats?Not that I have anything against your style, you are very pretty and you look good, but not tonight.You don't have to be pretty tonight.You must be stunning tonight!”
I squeeze my arms tighter against my chest.
I know Nat is right but I'm terrified of looking ridiculous, inadequate.
May Steve laugh at me and tell me that dress is not for me, that I'm not feminine enough to wear it.
My friend bends over to the bed, grabbing her clothes again and handing them over to me.
“Go get changed.I don't take no for an answer.Go!"
I sigh resignede, I don't think I have any chance against her.
I grab her things from her arms and without saying a word I lock myself in the bathroom.
I hear Natasha laughing behind my back.
“Don't be so dramatic” she laughs.
I honestly just want to cry right now.
I would like to cry while in my fingers I am clutching a tiny black thong.
Thong coordinated with a bra.
They are plain, black and shiny silk.
I feel my cheeks go up in flames at the thought that Steve can see me with only these on.
I think of his eyes full of lust as he worships my body as his hands that have become so expert find their way under these skimpy briefs.
A familiar heat pulsates in the middle of my thighs.
Natasha is right.
He's not expecting something tonight.
It's me.
I'm the one who wants something more from him tonight.
I dress with more courage than before and look in the mirror.
My breasts are sensually embraced by silk.
I turn my back looking at my ass in the mirror.
Actually I look sexy, the generous hips seem more elegant wrapped in the silk that disappears in the middle of my ass.
The legs wrapped in black stockings have a more toned look.
I feel different, more self-confident.
I bite my bottom lip thinking about how Steve might react.
With much more enthusiasm than when I entered the bathroom, I grab the dress that Nat gave me and put it on.
The dress in soft black velvet falls adherent above the knee with a vertiginous slit goes up to the thigh, the sleeves are made of a brilliant black tulle.
I'm wearing black heels.
I just wobble.
I hope I don't fall, I absolutely don't want to look like an idiot.
I smooth the dress with my hands repeatedly and after taking a deep breath I grab the door handle and rotate it.
As soon as I leave the bathroom Natasha puts her hands to her mouth, her eyes are dilated with amazement.
"What do you think?Honestly" I ask timidly.
“Oh Lily…I…I have no words!You are absolutely perfect.Gorgeous!"
She approaches me and grabbing my hand we approach the mirror.
Our reflexes observe us side by side.
"Natasha I don't know how to really thank you" I tell her looking at her through the mirror.
"You worked a miracle"
She gives me a light blow with the shoulder.
“Don't be silly” she chuckles.
“It's all your doing.You put the raw material, I just made a few additions”
I laugh with her.
“But now we have to go.It's 7:30 and even though it's chic to delay I hate it.Let's go”
My friend urges me, grabbing two coats from above the sofa and handing one to me.
Her is a wonderful black fur coat, while mine is red with a collar and cuffs adorned with a soft black fur.
We head towards the elevator, Nat with a firm and elegant step.
I am a little less.
"God I hope I don't fall off these stilts" I giggle nervously grabbing Natasha's arm.
She laughs shaking her head.
As soon as I enter the elevator I feel my heart begin to beat at an unbearable pace, I rub the palms of my sweaty hands between them.
I'm starting to be anxious about the evening.
My friend notices it and grabs my hand between hers, squeezing it just as if with her touch she wanted to give me courage.
As soon as the elevator doors open, a celestial vision appears in front of my eyes.
Steve is gorgeous, all dressed in black except for his burgundy jacket.
In his hands he holds a wonderful bouquet of red roses and my eyes immediately fill with tears.
His mesmerizing clear eyes stare at me, indeed devour me, with an entirely new hunger.
On his face, painted by angels and sculpted by the gods, a captivating smile blossom slowly.
His eyes shine as if the sun has just entered the room.
But there is something different in his look tonight, for the first time I can perceive not only affection...there is possession, passion, lust.
A look that he usually reserves for me while he is intent on pleasing me but tonight he is doing it in front of everyone.
As if he didn't care at all that anyone could understand his thoughts, his intentions.
I approach him and when I am one step away I see him lean towards me and give me the roses.
"I hope you like them" he whispers after leaving me a chaste kiss on my lips.
I am stunned for a moment by the intoxicating scent of him but I try to recover some clarity to be able to answer him.
"They are perfect.Thank you” I whisper bringing the flowers to my face to smell the sweet fragrance.
"Did you see how sweet Steve was?"
I turn to the sound of Natasha's voice and find her standing in front of Bucky with her arms crossed over her chest and her gaze sharp.
"Baby, you hate flowers" sighs a now resigned Bucky.
"I know but it's the gesture that counts"
"Nat what the hell are you talking about?"
She dismisses him with a wave of her hand, as if him were an annoying insect.
"Forget it" she murmurs.
Bucky turns disconsolately to Steve and in a whisper rolling his eyes he says "See?What did I tell you?"
Steve chuckles in response.
The former Winter Soldier approaches his beautiful girlfriend and wraps her shoulders with his arm in Vibranium.
"I'm sorry baby.Later I assure you that I will find a way to make me forgive”
We all four laugh together and just at that moment a very elegant Tony Stark gets in the hall, on his arm an extraordinary Pepper.
Both are beautiful as to be frightening.
He wears a simple black tuxedo that fits him perfectly, her girlfriend instead wears a beautiful long gold-colored dress, bare back and a dizzying slit that goes up her left thigh.
The auburn hair is gathered in an elegant low bun.
Tony is helping her to put on a very luxurious white fur that I bet costs as much as one of his precious cars.
"Good evening gentlemen.Madam” Stark greets us with a slight nod.
Pepper smiles at Nat then turns to me with a wonderful smile on her face.
“Hi Lily, how are you?Are you getting used to life with the Avengers?"
"Yeah...a bit chaotic but I'm ok"
We both giggle as Steve smiles and put his arm around my hips and kisses the top of my head.
"Where will you spend this Christmas Eve night?" I ask politely.
Tony answer me.
“Tonight we have a gala dinner with some of my investors and sadly, even though I had proposed to Miss Potts to take a flight to Hawaii, I can't miss it”
I see Pepper roll her eyes.
It can't be easy to live next to a man like Stark.
Always so unpredictable and chaotic.
I smile at her.
"Where do you go so elegant?"  Tony asks curiously.
I don't answer right away, I don't know if Bucky and Natasha want to go public with their relationship.
On the other hand, as soon as Tony arrived, Bucky immediately freed Natasha from his embrace.
But to my surprise it is the redhead in front of me who answers.
I see her grab her man's hand and squeeze it.
“Nothing in particular.Just a double romantic date”
Tony doesn't even try to mask his amazement.
"Really?You and Barnes?"
Pepper promptly nudges him in the stomach and embarrassed apologizes for him.
“What Tony means is that he is happy for you two and wishes you a good evening.Let's go now Mister Delicacy” so saying she grabs her man by the hand and drags him away.
"Oh yeah, that's what I meant" exclaims Tony, giving me a wink.
But just before turning the corner and disappearing he turns to Bucky and with his thumbs up he yells "Nice shot Barnes"
After which he disappears.
Bucky is literally speechless, he certainly did not expect such a strong declaration of love from his beloved.
"What?" Natasha asks shrugging her shoulders and adds “Come on let's go or we'll be late”
“Ok you go ahead I'll put the flowers in a vase and I'll arrive” I announce to the three in front of me.
"Go guys, we'll join you in a minute" adds Steve.
Of course he follows me.
"I don't need help, I can do it by myself"
But I don't have time to add anything other than Steve snatches the flowers from my hands letting them fall to the floor and in a moment I find myself with my back against the wall and his muscular body pressing on mine.
His lips are on my neck, his hands grip my thighs through the dress.
"Steve" I gasp, I can't even understand what I really begging him for.
A hand of his goes up to tighten around my throat, his fingers press gently.
I feel my head spinning with excitement.
“You look great tonight, honey.You have no idea how much I'm holding back”
Drunk by his words, I tease him a little.
"Holding back from doing what, Cap?"
His eyes are planted in mine.
"Don't play with me like that, Lily"
His warning makes me tremble...but not with fear.
"What if I told you that right now I just want you to take me upstairs?" I whisper on his lips.
His jaw clenches a little.
He closes his eyes and sighs.
“Honey, you know I don't expect anything from this evening.You know that, right?"
He opens his eyes and rests his forehead on mine.
"I know it.The problem is that I'm the one who wants something from this evening” I admit candidly.
Steve breaks away from me to study my expression.
"You don't have to prove anything to me..."
"I know" I interrupt him.
"I know it.But I want you.Of this I'm sure”
He seems hesitant.
Why does he react like this?
Is it possible that he doesn't feel attracted enough to me?
What if he doesn't find me exciting?
It would explain why he never wanted me to reciprocate his most intimate cuddles.
I look down at our feet, feel the shame devour me.
But besides the shame I feel another feeling boiling inside me.
A whole new feeling.
Anger.
Anger at feeling rejected as if nothing had happened.
I turn to him in an angry voice, avoiding looking him in the eye, I say “We better go.They've been waiting for us for a while”
I start to pass him but his big hand grabs my wrist and stops my escape.
"What's happening?"