I died and woke up in an otome game (BL)

Chapter 19 + 20 : (Death comes for us all) and (Void)

He's dead, drake.

I keep playing the moment over and over in my head; we were talking, laughing, dancing... it just felt so right, so I...kissed him.

It was a simple kiss. A short kiss.

...He told me he loved me.

And then suddenly he was gone. Disappeared.

I don't know what happened.

I woke up later (two weeks later, I was told) in my bed at the church, to a sleeping Sheri.

She was in hysterics when she woke up, but she powered through and explained to me that there was an attack. A magical artifact that was akin to a bomb. It took out over a hundred people.

Drake was one of them.

He...protected me, and died in the process.

They already had the funeral.

He was dead.

And it was my fault.

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Time lulled together...I can't remember the last time I left my bed.

My eyes are sore, and I'm sure they're red.

There's dry tear tracks on my cheeks that feel sticky whenever I move my face. I miss him.

So, so much.

There wasn't even enough time.

I didn't get enough time with him.

It feels like only yesterday I met him at the palace.. my golden boy.

Gah, I'm crying again!

Stupid Goddess.

I thought I was supposed to be happy.

Well, I'm not.

I feel broken. Like there's something missing. There's this...hole in my heart. It's gaping and it hurts. It hurts, damnit!!

...I miss him.

So, so much.

I kinda hate you goddess.

You gave me a new life and said I would be happy.

And I was.

And now I'm not.

Damnit.