Rex the Period and Silence

#16 The Socks

Yu-Lin had left but the words that came out from her mouth didn't let Rex alone. Jay could feel the speechlessness of his youngest sister. He had expected that a quarrel might occur between them, however, he didn't expect the explosion would break this strong. The thought he had in mind was Rex plainly had a clash with her friend, that's all. After all, under the calm sea, happened so many cruel food chains. Jay approached Rex after the two hours sneak out behind her back. "What are you doing?" He acted as nothing happened. Rex's old self surely had returned. She smiled and said, "Nothing." Jay remembered for sure, three hours earlier she said, "I'm going to picture every second and every mil-second the sun is setting." 

"Why did you do that?" Jay cared no more, if he let her dive deeper into her own mind, he would find no more way out to pull her out. It was his last chance to grab cease her deadly steps. Remember wasn't enough, she had to talk it all out. She shouldn't keep it all any longer.

"What do you mean?" 

"Why did you give up on your life?" Jay's question stroke at her. "You can fool everyone but not me. You were fabricating your suicide as an accident." But Rex shook her head, declining Jay's assumption. "I know everything__just split it out." Rex chuckled, "You know nothing." 

"Then, tell me something," responded Jay, Rex failed to reply to him. "Were you throwing yourself just because you failed to understand it?" Jay was the one who talked. "How could you decide to toss it out when you lacked off data? What if it was a diamond?" Jay was still the one who spoke. "I threw it because I knew it precisely. I've known all along what is inside."

"You've known it all along---then why didn't you throw it a long time before? Why now?" He was the type of person who used the others' weapons to hurt them back. "You should have done it four years earlier! It's not fair! You were using the deceased's as the cause of your ill fortune when you were the one who do it!"

"I know," say her as low as the whisper. Both of them were organizing their mind. The sun was setting silently and now the darkness shrouded them around. "Look__," Jay started the conversation. "There must be a time where everyone hates themselves," the nighttime made the conversation flowed smoothly as none of them could see one another's face. "Mei hates if somebody rejects her or kicks her from the conversation or when she's being out of date. Those things will make her feels like trash. I, I hate losing. I'll do whatever it takes to be the first one who touches the finish line. I'll become furious if someone gets the clue before I make it. If someone outruns me__I hate that the most. One of Mei's friends will lock herself for four days if she is scolded. You are not the one who hates yourself. There is a time where we all feel the same," Jay looked at Rex, but the night didn't let him to. "So___ what makes us walk on the pavement while you walk to the edge of the concrete?" Rex couldn't give any response. "We are sharing that pain and we reconcile with ourselves. We all admit that we are just a flawed humans. Do you know that a small wound will have gone bad if we don't treat it right away?" still, Jay didn't hear Rex's voice. Rex sat so still that Jay worried she had run away. At that moment he wished that Rex was a nocturnal human, so he could see her eyes even in the dark and so he could confirm whether she was still there or had gone leaving him all alone. "Ok__how about__you tell me how bad you are? Or maybe how disgusting you are that you made that decision."

"You can see it right through me." Finally Rex made a sound.

"No, I can't__it's so dark." Jay was trying to lift the mood up with his joke.

"You saw it in a day," and Rex was too tired to play along with it.

"I forget."

Rex hated to talk about herself because it would only make her disliked herself more. "I am useless."