Surfived || Newtmas AU

Chapter 9 - 'for the first time in forever'

(A/N : enjoy this piece of shit, it's so bad  i'm so sorry)

Newt's POV

2 months later...

I guess i never talked about Thomas anymore, to anyone.
Except Teresa.
My parents let me go to a new school with Teresa, they thought it would be smarter.
I never had much friends but Teresa did help me.
Even though, i never was with Teresa at school.
She was always with Thomas.
And I couldn't sit with him.
So i was almost 2 months in school, Without anyone again.

I stopped with the wheelchair after 2 months and got a walking stick thing.
I hated it, made me look like an old person sometimes.

And now i was walking, well limping through the hallways of the school.
I got to my locker and unlocked it, getting out some books.
It was hard with balance and stuff, half of the books fell to the ground and i wanted to pick them up, but again it was basically impossible.
Then i saw someone walking towards me.
Thomas...

He picked up my books and put them back in the locker.
"Which one do you need?" He asked without emotion.
"I- uh- English" i stuttered out.
He handed the English book and walked away.
What the fuck was that?
I decided to go after him, why was he still so mad over it? It wasn't that big of a deal...

I slammed my locker shut and walked over to him.
"Seriously what's your problem? It wasn't a big deal what i did" i said holding on to my english book.
"For god sake Newt you could've been a bit more grateful. I literally saved your ass and you didn't even say thank you, the first thing that came out of your mouth was ungrateful bullshit" he said collective, not getting mad.
"I'm sorry okay? It's just that I can't or don't know how to accept that stuff." I sighed, having a hard time keeping up with him.
"I need to talk to you, after school" he just said.

I got confused and stopped in my tracks.
"Okay i guess... you're gonna explain why you're being so weird..." i said and turned around, walking to my English class, through all the people in the hallway.

The whole school day was just as always.
It seemed like ages and i sat alone at lunch break ofcourse.

I usually walked home because it wasn't that far from the new school.
But now i was waiting for some stupid boy which i had been so happy with 2 months ago...

We both walked to his car and got in.
The silence was ear bleeding loud.
The tension, everything.
We arrived at his house and went in.
His mom wasn't was home but we walked upstairs anyway.

"What did you wanna talk about?" I asked silently.
It was a bit of silence and he just went off...
"Okay, I know i was a dick about this all, I could've been nicer yes. But you could've been nicer too, I shouldn't have ignored you like that for 2 months either especially because you needed someone. But i just couldn't handle myself" he kept going.
"Tommy" i said quietly.
"and I don't know why i'm so weird all the time. I'm so confusing and it's because i really like you i guess, but then again i'm so weird about it and this actually doesn't make any sense... but i missed you and i'm sorry"
"Tommy" i said again
"For being a bitch an-"
"Tommy!" I yelled.
"Huh, what?" He said confused, he clearly didn't hear me the first few times.
"Why are you apologizing?" I just asked.
"What?"
"Tommy you didn't do anything wrong, none of us did..." i sat down next to him on the bed.
"I know, but I don't know how to say i like someone" he sighed.
"You're confusing me so bloody bad" i rubbed my temples.
"Sorry" he said, resting his head in his hands.

What was going on with this dude?
"I'm sorry I don't talk about my feelings that much" Thomas said.
"Okay, well now you do and i know they're feelings about me but just pretend i'm not me" i said.
"Okay.. what do i do?"
"Talk about how you feel? Like what's the feeling when you see me"
We have too many turns in such a short time my lord... anyway i lay down across the bed and let him talk.

"Well, i kind of light up like a fire inside, and i smile like crazy but i hide it and... i dream of you a lot... like a lot. And i really like you, but i tell myself i don't just because I overreacted that one time you were hurt and didn't want my kindness. and i'm sorry about that but i really wanna kiss your stupid face, even though my face is more stupid." He had turned around facing me.
"Thomas, I can't surf anymore..."  i just said.
"I'm sorry"
I sat up on the bed.
"It's okay but just don't ever ignore me because i needed you the past 2 months and you were nowhere to help me" i sighed.
"I won't and i also won't be so confusing anymore" he agreed...
I nodded.

Thomas went in and kissed me, soft but passionately.
I pulled away and stopped him.
"Thomas just wait... I can't keep doing that without some clearance, what do you want us to be?"
"I don't know if you like me enough for that..."
"If I didn't do you think i would've wanted you back?"
"I don't know..."
"God you're so clueless, i like you a lot too. So i'm gonna ask again what do you. Want us to be?"
"I don't know what you-"
"I'm not asking what i want Tommy i'm asking what you want." I sighed and held his hand.

"I want you to be..."

(A/N : this is the worst thing i ever made lol i'm sorry this is so bad)