Surfived || Newtmas AU

Chapter 3 - 'Post Traumatic Stress'

Newt's POV (this is purely to not mess up the storyline thomas will come soon)

The limp was mentally not good for me, it was honestly making me very self conscious, it was summer break that i woke up so i had plenty of time to get back into school.
Every time i got out of the shower and looked in the mirror in my room, i see that scar and i cried a lot of the time when i see it.
It took me the courage to even go to the beach today, i don't know if i can surf again. Just maybe...

"Let's go bro, i'll get your stuff don't worry" Lizzy was so exited to go to the beach again.
I did it mostly for my sister, she really wanted to go and it was itching to go for me too.
It's just hard dealing with all this that it did actually get me a PTSD.
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder by the way.
It was shitty and all but, it's not like i could live in that coma forever.
I mean technically if i was braindead i could, besides the point.

"Thanks for doing this for Liz ey." My father put his hand on my shoulder.
"Yeah.." i breathed out.
Focus on your breathing, that's what the therapist said.
My thoughts running my brain.
I kept thinking, breathe in breathe out.
Hearing the waves calmed and stressed me out at the same time.
I saw a few people surfing but the waves weren't great, seems logical for this time of the year.
Summer is not really the best season to surf since the wind is still and the water is calm.
They did catch a few good waves but they were pretty far out.

"Are you all right? We're almost there"
Oh yeah forgot to tell you, we're going to the girl that saved me.
Teresa is her name i believe, honestly i'm thankful even though I don't know her but that's logical i guess..
I was a bit out of shape, so i needed to catch my breath and my leg was hurting.
"Yeah i'll be fine" i took a breath and started walking again.

"Hey Newt! I'm Teresa it's so good to finally talk to you and you respond... come sit down" we all went along and my parents and sis left me with her.
"So, i know this might be a sensitive thing but can i see the bite?" She asked politely, I hesitated but she saved me she can see it.
So i nodded and pulled up my over the knee shorts.
"Wow" was the only thing she said.
I was getting quite self-conscious.
"It's so, cool" she traced it with her fingers.
"What?" I was confused how is it cool? It looks disgusting.
"Yeah see how you can exactly see everything, makes you a survivor you know? Gives you a story that's not as boring."
I had never thought about it that way.
"I mean, i guess you're right" i could finally look at that scar and not be horrified, like it was the only thing about me.
The more i kept looking, i think the more I didn't hate it.

"See? It's your story of saying you're a survivor" she smiled and stood up.
"Where are we going?" She dragged me.
"The sea, ocean whatever"
Fear shot in.
"No! Teresa no i'm too afraid I can't" i tried to put my heels in the sand but only my right leg worked.
"Okay" she let me go "you'll stay on shore, i'll go swim" she smiled.
She knew what she was doing because i wanted to go in, but it was scary...
Even though there were loads of people in the water, i stayed as Teresa said on shore.
I did go in with my feet eventually.
I felt the breeze going a bit through my hair, it made me wanna get the feeling of surfing back.
"TERESA!" I yelled and waved hoping she could hear me.
She did.

When she got to me i said. "I wanna swim" she dragged me along and we both swam and floated a bit, it felt like i was finally getting it.
That feeling back, freedom.
"This feels so nice" i said.
"I know right? I do this with my bestfriend all the time" she paddled a bit with her feet.
"Who's your bestfriend?" I asked out of curiosity.
"Thomas, i think you'd like him." She chuckled after that.
"We went to Paris on holiday together" she explained what they all did.

"He seems fun, so he's your bestfriend? Not boyfriend?" Not that i wanted Teresa anyways but you know.
"Oh god no! Haha Newt he's not really into people like me" she laughed loudly.
"People like you?" I closed my eyes feeling the water around me even more.
"Girls Newt, he's kinda gay. Bisexual more but boys preferred."
Gay rights, ha
"Same, not bisexual though, i'm gay just gay" i laughed out too.
"Oh god i'm gonna be stuck with gay friends" she stopped floating and started swimming back.
"So true" i swam back too.

"Can i meet him? Thomas?" I asked drying my hair.
"Yeah of course! When?"
"Tomorrow? We need to chill now first"
I laid down on a towel and closed my eyes
"Alright." She did the same.

*dreaming*

I felt myself carrying my surf board, but it wasn't the same.
I was younger, this was when we first moved here...
"Mom, dad! See those waves" i saw my parents standing behind me.
I took my board and paddled to a wave, i felt it all like it was so real.
I felt the wind, and i stood up, riding the wave like a bull.
It was such a free moment.
"Woooh!" I yelled and kept my balance.
When the wave ended i laid on my board and paddled to shore again.
"That was sick!"

*end of dream*

I sat up and saw that Teresa was awake.
"Teresa." I said abrupt.
"Yeah?" She looked at me.
"Do you have a surfboard?" I asked not even knowing what i said.
"Hell yes" she ran away to her car i think.

"It is pink though" she said handing the board
"Is it balanced properly?" I asked holding the board standing mostly on my right leg again.
"Balanced properly? Are you kidding me it has the fins that's it." She walked to the ocean.
"The waves aren't that big though" She inspected the waves.
"I know but they're good enough for the first bloody time again" something inside of me was screaming for me to get in the water
"Are my parents watching?" I walked in slowly.
"No they're just on their towels" Teresa reassured me.
"Good that... i'm going now hope i won't die" i walked in further and put the board down, hesitating if i should really go but i was in the water already.

Here we fucking go...

(A/N : ohh i had so much inspiration hope you like this)