Supernatural Oneshots

I've lost my mind

I sit on the chair and watch as he moves around the kitchen, grabbing all sorts of ingredients for whatever he is making. I can't get over these feelings for this brother, it's a slight issue, I'm starting to get too distracted on hunts worrying about him. 

Am I in your head? 

He's every waking thought, every dream, I worry about him when I don't have eyes on him. I think I've fallen in love with this man.

"Y/n? You okay? You're staring at me again."

I shake my head a little bit and nod, "Yeah, sorry I zoned out for a little bit." 

"What were you thinking about?" He leans against the bench and throws the tea towel over his shoulder and his arms flex a little as he crosses them over one another on the bench. 

I take a deep breath and go to open my mouth but can't bare to admit my raging crush.

Half as often as you're on my mind? 

"Ah, nothing really, just trying to get out of reality for a second to give myself some time away from my mental health, y'know?" 

"I know what you mean, I do the same sometimes," He says as he turns back to face the food.

You're the scars on my skin and the past I don't wanna erase. 

Every time my name passes his lips I melt a little bit, it's even worse when he comes up with nicknames for my name or just endearing terms to get me flustered. 

He's hurt me so many times by flirting with other girls, but I know I can't be jealous when I haven't admitted my own feelings to him. Although I think it's all a way to get me to admit those feelings, cause there is no way he doesn't know about my feelings towards him with the amount of times he catches me staring into his soul because he's run a hand through his hair, or he's moved something or flexed his biceps while fighting some monster or interrogating some victim that isn't cooperating - the way his voice raises sends chills down my spine. 

You're all I've ever wanted.

I haven't flirted with anyone else since this crush became apparent and it's been going on for a solid year now, I've been living with the Winchester brothers for two years but I kind of just ignored all the flirting they threw my way as playful until one day when something clicked and bam, now I'm falling head over heels for one of them.  

You're in my head, I must have lost my mind.

Men will flirt with me constantly at bars and I push them away, watching him flirt with other girls while my fists are curled into balls and my jaw is clenched while the other brother just sits there watching my reaction, telling me to admit my feelings as I refuse and put myself through this trauma.

The lingering touches, the slightly tighter hugs after a hunt when I get injured, the caring about every move I make when I'm hurt or when I'm drunk, the little bit too long eye contact, all of these signs he's giving me and I still can't admit that I love him for fear of rejection, our life doesn't accommodate for a relationship so you'd think I would just go for it, I've got nothing to lose, sure it might be awkward but we will get over it. 

I've lost my mind.

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