Supernatural Oneshots

I loved you and you did nothing - Cordell Walker (2021) x reader

Warnings; mentions of Sexual Assault, messy plot lines, yelling (well, descriptions of it)

"Why the fuck do I have to remind you that I run this shit?" Cordell shouts at me.

I turn around and hear Micki stop walking a few steps ahead of me, I see her appear at my side as she gives Cordell the same look I'm wearing.

"I wasn't aware you started 'running this shit'? When did this happen, Walker?" I ask getting in his face.

Micki stands back and watches me get into our partners face. Cordell has always treated me like it's his duty to care for me and I've hated it. I'm the same age as Micki, only a few years younger than he is. With the exception that I've known Cordell my whole life so maybe that's where his attitude comes from.

"It started when you joined my team!" Cordell shouts in my face.

"No it started when I was born! You're an asshole who can't handle anything not being in your control! Micki and I can handle this case, go back home to your daughter who I practically raised with Emily when you weren't around cause work was your priority over your own damn family!" I say starting off  surprisingly calm and I end up yelling the last few words in his face and he steps back, shocked that I went there.

"Emily always liked you more than she liked me, no wonder why," Cordell says. "I'm starting to see how you take every person I'm close to away from me."

"It's not my fault they find me more likeable!" I say as I back away to Micki who has her hand out to touch my back when I reach her.

"You're ridiculous! I can't believe it, why would you even try to take over?" Cordell asks as he starts pacing.

I look at Micki in shock that he's still going on about how us two women have taken over a case that could get Cordell thrown into jail for one wrong move. It's a sensitive case surrounding the sexual assault of a young teen and a male ranger is the last thing she wants.

"Because we're trying to protect you from ruining your life on this case!" I exclaim, my voice wavering with emotion.

"Protect me? Why? I can handle this shit!" Cordell shouts again.

"Not this shit, I don't wanna see you get thrown into jail for saying the wrong thing like you happen to do some times," I say at a normal register and try to make eye contact with Cordell as Micki starts to grab both of my shoulders.

"Why do you care?!" Cordell stops pacing and shouts at me, pointing a finger in my face.

I take a deep breath and look him in the eyes, "because I love you, you idiot!"

Cordell's face changes instantly and Micki pulls me in to give me a hug as Cordell processes what I just told him.

"Since when?" Cordell asks me.

"Since I graduated high school, you were 24," I say, my voice muffled by Micki's shoulder.

"Oh," Cordell says.

"Oh? That's all?" I ask as I back away from Micki. "I know I never fucking told you but I assumed it was kind of obvious Walker, I was head over heels for you for years, you were the perfect guy, you understood my life style, you grew up on a ranch, you were caring, kind, you were selfless for fucks sake and I wanted that for so long."

Cordell starts to tear up as he realises how much he's hurt me over the years by being so oblivious.

"I tried telling you, fuck I did tell you straight up multiple times but you brushed it off as platonic love, sibling love or whatever you called it to excuse the fact that you felt the same way after you met Emily," I explain, Micki letting this all unravel. "I was heartbroken when you married Emily but god knows I knew how much you two loved each other, so I moved on but once she died it all came flooding back, I had learnt to love her with the love I used to have for you, I learnt to love the kids with that love but now she's gone it's back."

Cordell tries to touch me but Micki stops him.

"I don't want you to get involved in this case because it happened to me Cordell, you weren't there to help because of work, Emily helped me the best she could but I needed my best friend and HE WASNT FUCKING THERE!" I cry and shout at him as he realises what he missed out on by being so obsessed with work that his own wife was helping me instead of the person who knew me better than I know myself.

Micki gets Cordell to take a few steps back to give me space.

"So yeah I'm taking the fucking lead on this, grow up," I spit and turn around and continue the case we were assigned, I feel Micki fall in step with me as she wraps an arm around my shoulders and we leave Cordell standing on the footpath reeling in what just happened.