Too Personal

Too Personal: Intro

Her.

It would make things alot easier if I knew how to fix it. If knew how to fix everything.

School was an escape, but also a prison all in itself. My parents expect alot from me at times, but I guess it's because I get things I want alot of the time. I am appreciative of those things but being an only child it's easier to accommodate that for me. I do my chores, never good enough for my mom,but I do them. Currently I'm doing great in school. But under constant stress once tests after tests start up. Work piles up when you don't notice even if you attend your classes daily.

Home is a whole other ballpark. Stress. That's the word that describes it best.

I grew up and I thought my childhood was great. I really did. My mom made friends with other kids moms in my classes really early so I always had a group of friends. That group of friends stayed with me for years. Most of us broke apart on pretty good terms and others I still talk to. I'm thankful for having that steady support even when life was still easy. My parents got along back then, we would eat dinner together, and just have fun casual conversations and nights together. I got the toys I wanted with a lot of begging, I just overall loved life back then.

Now, nothing is really the same. My mom and me have rocky relationship. My dad and I get along great. She hates it. I know it.

My dad gets me the things I want or need even when my mom already said no. But we both think she says no for stupid reasons, because there isn't really a bad reason not to let me get a box of pop tarts when I want a box of pop tarts. Right? Anyway, I don't get along with my mom. And neither has my dad. It's put alot of stress on everything at home because they argue and if they arent arguing then me and her are.

It's gone on since 7th grade when I didn't have a clue what was really going on. Now I do.