I decided to call up my old therapist and ask him if we can schedule a meeting because the voice is back. He was surprised and agreed after I explained what happened. I didn't tell him about my dog turned human, of course. He would definitely think it was a new symptom of craziness I had.
As I was about to leave, Jake jogged over to me, holding my arm. I smiled and laid my hand on his.
"I'll be back soon. Don't worry."
"But I'll..miss you.", He said with a pout. I laughed softly and ruffled his hair.
"Who knew my dog could be this cute even as a human?"
He reluctantly took his hand off and I could see a smile slowly growing on his face.
"Be a good boy and wait,okay?", Jake nodded eagerly.
I didn't want to leave Jake even more than when he was a dog but it was just a short meeting. I should be prioritising my mental health. So, I reluctantly left and locked the door.
"He'll be fine. He's a smart boy.", I smiled and nodded to myself.
I got into my car and drove to a very familiar and nostalgic place. His office. My therapist wasn't really a personal one, well, he was until I got better. It's been a year since our last meeting. He pretty much knows everything about me. We had gotten closer in the three years he was my therapist. He even gave me his personal number so I could contact him if I wanted to hang out.
I knocked on his door and I heard shuffling before his voice called to enter. I turned to doorknob and opened the door. I immediately smiled at the sight of my therapist. Lee Heeseung.
"Hi, Dr. Lee.", I greeted with a slight teasing tone.
"Hi, Hoonie.", He replied back with the same teasing tone.
He stood up and we walked closer until he pulled me into a soft hug. Not a professional one but ones best friends give.
I smiled and wrapped my arms around his waist. We just stood there, hugging in comfortable silence. I missed him. A lot.
"So how have you been? It's been a year, right?", I nodded as I sipped on the water in the paper cup he gave me.
I looked at him closely and realised he's gotten a lot more handsome. Like really handsome. He grew out his hair and it reached the tip of his shoulders. It suited his look. Of course I knew he would probably tie up his hair in a ponytail or manbun.
"It's been quite good with me. I've had little to no depressive episodes, thanks to Wonnie and Jake.", I started as Heeseung just listened as he always did.
"That's great to hear. Jake is the puppy you took in a year before you got better, right?", I smiled and nodded.
Heeseung smiled.
"Animals can help someone's mental health a lot and I'm glad they have a positive impact on you."
He then cleared his throat and I knew he was going to ask me about the voice in my head.
"So, about the voice in your head. Does it still say the same thing?", I sighed and nodded.
"It keeps blaming me for my mom's death. Like me not picking up the call has any change on what would've happened. It's stupid.", I said, rolled my eyes.
I've always hated the voice in the back of my head. It made me feel shitty and always blamed me for something I had no fault in. Heeseung knows how I felt. He could always read my emotions.
"I know it's hard, Hoon, but I know you can fight it. It may be back but you haven't gotten an episode, right?", I hesitated.
Should I tell him my hands were begging for a razor to be in it's grasp? Would he be worried? I looked up to him and shook my head to which he smiled and nodded.
"That's a relief. I don't think I need to prescribe any anti-depressants yet but if your condition gets bad again, call me straight away, okay?", I nodded and looked down to my shoes, suddenly finding it interesting.
Heeseung stood up from his chair and walked to me as I just stayed there, eyes following him. He bent down and grabbed my chin, tilting my head up to face him.
"You're very precious to me, Hoon. I'd hate to see you in pain again like all those years ago."
He smiled and leaned in, planting a sweet peck on my forehead that made my cheeks flush. My eyes just studied his expression, desperate to make sense of what he just did. Before I could come to a conclusion he leaned in again, this time to my lips.
I froze. My heartbeat raced and got faster. What do I do now? Before I could react to the kiss, he immediately pulled away and covered his mouth, his eyes wide in shock.
"I-I'm so sorry, I-I don't k-know what I was thinking."
I also panicked, thinking he realised I was a bad kisser.
"It's o-okay, hyung. I was ju-just s-surprised.", He stared at me and moved closer to me and I didn't move.
"Can I kiss you again?", I smiled and nodded.
"Sure, hyung.", he just smiled and rested his palms on my cheeks, leaning in as his soft lips touched mine.
I immediately felt a burning sensation in my stomach. I don't know what it is but it felt good. I've always felt something for Heeseung. He's handsome and kind and pretty much knows everything about me. Kissing him made me realise just how
much I liked him. Maybe dating Lee Heeseung wouldn't be so bad. At least he's a good kisser. Anything to make me forget about my feelings for my dog.
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the alley puppy.
Fanfiction"ah! who the hell are you and why are you naked in my bed?!" the oddly attractive man on my bed tilted his head in confusion. "master. It's me, your jake." - park sunghoon became depressed shortly after his mom passed away. he had looked up to her a...
