The Queen

Chapter 16

"- it benefits the Kingdom. Alexandria, are you even listening?" Levis' annoyed voice called.

Hours passed and Theodore is nowhere to be found, well at least he is not in his office or bedroom. My mind has been repeating over and over again what happened, his small voice calling for help being the only thing I could focus on.

"Um- yes. You were saying?" I try to act as if I was listening to the last 20 minutes of Levi talking.

"Right. As I was saying, we should include Theodore and his Council on this year's invitation list for the Halloween ball. It will benefit the alliance by showing support to both kingdoms and taking advantage of their visit to reinforce some aspects of it." Levi explains, walking from the couch to the seats in front of my desk.

I let out a chuckle, "Halloween is in a month and a half, Levi, we still have a lot of time to plan this."

"Well, you know me. Also, I have a question for you," His voice hesitantly spoke.

"Ask away", I said looking up to him.

"How are you feeling about the rejection?"

Oh.

I was taken aback by the question because of the word choice.

Rejection.

Hearing the word being directed to me made the pain that I was trying to push again run back to me.

My eyes stay on Levi's face, his eyes shining with concern as I try to leave my expression as blank as possible.

Instead of answering, I look at the clock, 10:34 PM.

"I don't want to talk about it right now. I'll be heading out for the day." I replied, standing up from my chair.

"But Alex-",

"Levi, please." I snapped at him.

A frown settled on his face, while his eyes searched around my face.

I let a breath out, instantly regretting the way I spoke to him as I saw how he was just looking out for me.

"I'm sorry, I'm just really stressed right now, maybe another time?" I suggest, grabbing his hand into mine.

"Don't worry about it, just know that I'm here if you want to talk about it." He quietly said, wrapping me in a hug.

"I know, and thank you for that." An exhausted breath coming out of my mouth accompanied by a small headache.

After some minutes of reassuring Levi that I will talk to him once I'm ready, I head straight to the tree room, feeling the need to be alone with total silence.

I walk through the halls, replaying the moment I had with Theodore this morning. It made me think of the what-ifs of the situations, one of them being what if his true self wants the connection or what if he really doesn't. Also, how could he respond in such a state and why did that state appear when I was around? Was that supposed to happen?

I should've told Louis about what happened this morning, but maybe I'm charging him too much with my problems. But then again, he is the only person who can respond to all the questions I have.

My rushing thoughts were interrupted by the searing headache, causing me to slightly rub my forehead while walking. I try to ignore it by looking out the windows seeing how the stars stay with me with each step I take.

I get to the room, taking my shoes off immediately to feel the soft damp grass beneath them. I walk towards the tree, noticing that its shine is a bit off. Slightly caressing its trunk, the shine quietly came back to its normal state.