My Journal of Letters

Chapter-7

Vic POV

Kellin and I made our way down stairs after our little "moment". I still didn't know what possessed me to want to kiss him but I wanted to and from the looks of it he wanted to kiss me too, but then Mike came in and the mood changed. I'm not gonna lie he looked really cute learning how to play. The way his hair went in front of his face and the way his eyes really didn't have a distinct color to them and the way his smile-

"Vic set the table, Kellin would you help him please." We did as we were told and Kellin grabbed the plates and I set the silverware.

"No Vic, the forks go on the left and the spoons go on the right.." Kellin said fixing them.

"No, Kellin they go where I had them." I said fixing them again. My mom came in with a pan of cheese and noodle casserole and put it on the table.

"Vic the forks and spoons are on the wrong side." She said looking at the table. I looked at Kellin and he stuck his tongue out and smiled. "Boys! Dinner!" She yelled.

Like bats out of hell Mike, Tony, and Jaime all came from down stairs and swarmed the table. Kellin awkwardly made his way towards me. I smiled at his shyness and pulled his chair out for him.

"Is dad working late?" Mike asked taking a bite of his food.

"Yes, he has a big project for the mayor and he wants to get it done in two weeks time."

"Damn that means my pop is working late too." Jaime said.

"Not mine. He's on vacation." Tony smiled. I looked at Kellin and his whole demeanor changed. He was looking down at his plate slowly chewing his food and moving the food on his plate around with his fork. I can tell there was something wrong so I put my hand on his knee.

He looked at me and I can tell he was bothered by the subject so I changed it.

"Hey we have to practice all week next week our gig is next Saturday." The three of them mumbled an "okay" and Mom changed the subject back.

"So Kellin. What does your father do?" I quickly looked at her and shook my head. From what I remembered form his letters he didn't have the best relationship with his dad. Kellin though seemed to have choked on his food. I patted his back and he quickly recovered.

"Um. M-my dad? He um... I uh, I really don't remember." He said looking down again. Things got quiet and I looked at my mom and she looked at the others. They all looked down at their plate as the tension grew.

"Okay, mom can Kellin and I finish our food in my room?" I asked giving a pleading look. She nodded and looked down. "Come on." I whispered in his ear and grabbed his plate. He was up in a second and followed me back to my room. "I really am sorry about that." I said as I closed the door.

"It's whatever." He said with a dry laugh. I looked at him and watched as he tugged on his sleeves. I really wanted to know more about him. I wanted to hold him and tell him that everything will be okay but I couldn't. I couldn't because I didn't know what he was dealing with and what was going on. I was pulled out of my thoughts when I heard sniffing and saw Kellin wipe his face.

"Hey, what's wrong love?" I put my hands on his shoulders and looked at him. He had little tears falling from his eyes and his nose was red.

"Nothing I'm fine. Where's the bathroom?" He asked. I motioned for him to follow me and I led him down the hall.

Kellin POV

Once I was behind the closed door I quickly washed my face with cold water. I know Vivie meant well but I couldn't control how I felt about the touchy subject. I was ten when my dad left, so a good seven years he's been missing from my life and it was because of me.

I went to my pocket and pulled out the razor at the end of the chain that was hanging on my belt loop. I pulled up my sleeves-on each arm-and began making new cuts to match the others that already excised. I didn't want to feel this way when it came to this. I didn't want it making me feel happy that I felt a pain that was caused by me, but it did and as sick as it sounds I loved it.

"Kell? You okay." I jumped and quickly put the chain back in its place and washed off the blood from my arms. "Kellin?" Vic asked again. I pulled my sleeves down and opened the door.

"I'm good." I said putting on a brave face.

"I can take you home if you want." He said carefully. I shook my head and walked back to his room. As soon as I got there I laid down making myself comfortable on his bed. When he walked in he raised an eyebrow and smiled.

"Someone looks comfy." He said making his way to sit next to me.

"I think I might take your bed whenever I come over." I smiled and looked at the ceiling. It was painted black and had a big white full moon on it along with white stars scattered everywhere. I felt the bed shift and soon Vic's head was laying on the pillow next to me. "It's like we're outside looking at the stars." I sighed.

"Yea, watch this." He reached over me to the nightstand and pulled out a remote. He flipped the switch and the lights went off allowing a black light to shine over the white paintings making blue.

"Wow..." I was so amazed by the stars that I didn't know Vic wasn't looking at them.

"Yea, 'wow'." He said making me look at him. He smiled at me and came closer and stopped a little ways from my lips. I looked in his eyes then down to his lips. He took that as a "go for it" and closed the tiny gap finally letting our lips meet.

I kissed back feeling my heart and stomach explode many emotions, butterflies, something I've never felt before in my life. I pulled back letting my head hit the pillow before things got a little more heated. Vic looked down and smiled at me before pecking my lips again and laying down.

A little while later my phone went off with my mom's ring tone.

"Hey what time are you coming home?" I looked at my phone and saw it was already 6.

"Um... I guess I can come home now." I said a little sadly. Vic looked at me while laying on his side. He made a frowny face and it made me chuckle I made one back sticking out my lip to exaggerate the sadness.

"Okay don't forget to invite your friend to come over if he wants." She said. By that time Vic was tickling me because I mocked him.

"Vic, stop!, Ah! Vic! I will kick you, stop!" I said laughing.

"Kellin?.. Kellin are you listen-"

"Yes, mom, I'll ask. I'll see you when I get home love you bye!" I said hanging up quickly.

"Guess I have to take you home now huh?" He asked. I nodded and huffed trying to make myself sink further into his bed. "It's okay I'll see you Monday." He smiled and pecked my cheek.

"Or you can see me tomorrow night. My mom wanted me to invite you for pizza and a movie. You wanna come?" I asked sounding as sweetly as possible.

"Are you asking me on a movie pizza date?" I shrugged and nodded because in a way I guess I was. "Okay, yea. I'll come over." He smiled. I got up and picked up my bag. I said "bye" to everyone and Vic drove me home.

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Two updates in one day?!?!?! Yup!!! Just 'cause I'm in a good mood for my birthday!! :):):) love you lots!

♡Sofia