My Journal of Letters

Chapter-21

Vic's POV

I watched as Kellin made his way to the exit at the back before turning to Tay and Ben.

"Is he okay?" I asked. Taylor shugged and went back to her conversation with Ben. "I'm gonna go check on him." I whipered to Jaime. He nodded and went to find the others.

"Hi Vic? I'm Danny Marks, I work with Fearless Records, if you have a minute I'd like to talk to you." A man said stepping in front of me. I looked around him just in time to see Kellin walk out the door.

"Hi, um, do you mind waiting just a few minutes I have to make sure my boyfriend is okay." I said. The man smiled understandably and reached in to his suit pocket and pulled out a card handing it to me.

"Of corse. Here's my card. And I have you information so I will have my secretary call you to set up a meeting with you and the others." He smiled. I gave a quick smile back and quickly made my way to the door. As soon as I was out I saw Kell leaning against the brick wall with a lit Cigarette between his index and middle finger.

"Kell?" I asked, cautiously walking up to him. He didn't make any move to look at me other then put the cigarette up to his mouth and inhaled. "You're smoking." I pointed out the obvious.

"You're standing." He retorted back sarcasticly.

"I mean, why are you smoking?" I watched as he inhaled again.

"I'm stressed." He said letting the white ghostly fog ecape his lungs.

"You still shouldn't be smoking it's not good for you." I said reaching for it. He moved his hand up making it harder to reach it due to the slight hight advantage.

"Like you know what's good for me." He scuffed. I was taken back by the comment because nothing but distrust and hurt came from him.

"Hey now." I said making him look at me."Talk to me yeah? What's wrong?" The glare he wore grew more into a displeasing look.

"That conversation was personal." He was talking about the last bit of the song. I thought he wouldn't mind but, I guess I was wrong.

"Kell, it's not a big deal. No one knows you said those things." I said stepping in front of him. He his head snapped to look at me so quickly I thought it was going to break.

"I know I said those things Vic! You know I said those things! It might not mean anything to you but it means everything to me!" He spat at me. His eyes were red and lined with tears. "You don't understand how stressful it is to just even forget about that day, a day I never wanted you to witness, a day where, even if I was with you, I still felt like dying! You just-" he stopped talk and cackled sarcasticly before putting the cigarette in his mouth. Is he blaming him being stressed on me?

"So what are you blaming this on me?! Am I the one filling your lungs with this cancerous shit you have in your hand?" I stressed the fact that he was still smoking.

"No, but you're feeding the fire more by doing something like that! God Vic don't you think before doing something like that?" He asked almost yelling to get his point across. The only thing that pissed me off more was him telling me I wasn't thinking while writing it! The only thing I was thinking of while writing that was him and how much I'd be distroyed to lose him! Two can fu.cking play this game.

"What about you Kellin! Huh?! Don't you think before before pulling a stunt like that?" I said just as pissed off as him. His face softened from a frown to a blank stare instead. The tears that swelled in his eyes made it very clear that I said something I should have never said. Something I know now was a very low blow. "Kell I'm-"

"Just save it, okay?" He said dying out the last bit of his cigarette. "You know I was wrong to think you ever cared for me! A prick like you could never love a fuck up like me." My heart shatered at what he said. It felt like he just ripped it out of my cheast and squeezed what ever life was left in it. I do love him and he's not a fuck up in my eyes. He's Kellin Quinn, a beautiful boy who's just sad and needs someone to tell him he's wanted. He needs me just as much as I need him.

"Kellin, babe-"

"You know what. Do me a favor and leave me alone." He said before walking off. He was walking a way pretty fast which scared me because God only knows where he would go off to.

"Kellin!" I called after him, he turned around and gave me a cold stare. "Kellin I'm sorry! You know I love you!" He just shook his headand cackled again.

"Fuck this." He said before walking turning back around and walking further away from my sight. I sighed and went to go back in but was stopped by Sofia.

"You're not stepping one foot into my club unless you go and chase that boy down." She said.

"How much did you hear?" I asked looking back to where Kelling just walked off to. It took everything thing in me not to turn around and run after him.

"Enough, now you are going to go after him and make up or you will never see the inside of here again. You two obviously love eachother and I know Kellin and what his story is I used to go to elementary school him. He already feels abandoned so you just made it worse by making that comment. You know better Vic. This really isn't like you." She had a good point. I needed to go and get Kellin to say I'm sorry and to mak things right again.

"Thanks Obs I needed a punch back to reality." I said giving her a hug.

"It was more of a ' I'll skin you alive and throw you in a pool of alcohol' threat." She smiled. I smiled and thanked her again before running off to find Kellin.

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It's almost over my loves! I know... I'm sad too! :""(