One week later...
Empty.
A hollow container.
That's how I have been feeling for the past week.
It's been a week since I last spoke to Joon in the parking lot.
A week since I filed for divorce.
A week since everything around me unraveled.
It's not like Joon and I don't talk anymore, but he keeps our conversation limited to a professional capacity, keeping me at an arm's distance. No lunches, no hellos, and no cute little moments.
I miss having him around, I never realized his absence would affect me this much and now that he stopped interacting with me altogether, I miss my comfort.
I wish things were different. I don't understand when he will finally start talking to me, properly. With each passing day, my craving for him is growing stronger. I want to talk to him, feel him, touch him and just be with him.
I know he was hurt from Seojoon's statement—"She is still my wife I can do whatever the fuck I want with her"—I know he has been avoiding me because somewhere he feels helpless and maybe hurt.
But every time I tried to share that I have filed for divorce, he would somehow come up with an excuse and leave the room or avoid all sorts of personal conversations with me.
"I need to work on this presentation now, see you later."
"I'm busy right now, later".
"What is wrong with him?" Seokjin's voice breaks me out of my thoughts. We are sitting in my office cafeteria, having lunch together, "How can he keep on ignoring such a pretty girl like you?" Seokjin pokes my cheeks, amused at the situation.
In the past week, Jin and I have developed a stronger friendship. We call each other the divorce force as both of us are getting divorced together. Honestly, he helped me a lot with processing my emotions related to divorcing Seojoon. After all, he is going through a similar thing as well.
Sure he was with her for a shorter time, 6 years to be precise but still, divorce affects everyone emotionally because there was a time when your partner meant everything to you, they were the reason behind your happiness and someone who made you look forward to new moments.
Isn't that the reason why you marry someone and promise to spend the rest of your life with them?
The idea is to explore new things, make new promises, new memories, and new routines, creating a different life together.
The idea of leaving them, breaking your vows, breaking your routine, and moving ahead in your life without them, even if you don't love your partner anymore...it's still hard.
For me, it was very hard because, since 16, Seojoon was the only man I envisioned my life with. We talked about everything under the sun, planned our lives, our futures together, and then waking up one day and realizing that it's never going to happen is difficult.
25 and divorced already! A thought I'm still getting used to. It will take me some time to come to terms with it. "He's here...do you want to make him jealous?" Jin whispers playfully in my ear while I chuckle in response.
Jin is someone who is mature but still a child at heart.
Turning my body to look at him, I ask "You think he is capable of getting jealous?" He observes Namjoon for a moment, "Even normal men have the capacity to get jealous, and I am worldwide handsome" he smirks and then points at his face "Who wouldn't get insecure with this pretty face" Jin states with confidence.
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Undoing Us - KNJ
Fanfiction"Fuck Taehyung-" I scream as he continues to pump his fingers into me, making me reach my high and release in his mouth as his tongue laps on my core, taking in every drop of my release. __________________________________________ You have always bee...
