Through My Eyes.

Two of me

People think I'm joking
Think I'm kidding, it's a prank
But in reality I really draw a blank.
I'll try to explain this shit one last time.
You see I have two personalities.
Yes, they're both me.
But one is mean and bitchy and can't keep her hands clean.
The other is protected by the wall of screens.
So that I can functions with all my demos haunting me.
So when life gets to much to handle and I need a little time.
The bitch get to come out and I get to recline.
I don't remember when it happens
except my vision dulls.
She keeps me safe and warm in my land of make believe.
Sometimes I check out.
I need to disappear
So I open a portal and in I jump for about a year.
I get to visit lands that don't really exist
Do things I never could and do a little magic.
Please don't be started I really am okay
But once this book is done I'll be ready for a friend.
But right now I can't decide if I want to sleep or read
So let me rest the bitch is gone
It's time to get some sleep.
Now do you understand how hard it is being me
Some day I toss and turn and can hardly breath
Other days are just lost behind the many screens.
Too dark to know I'm holding back the things haunting me.