Strippers and CEOs - Namjin Yoonmin Taekook

Thirty

Namjoon really tries to sleep. He closes his eyes. He counts sheep. He changes positions several times. But he can't. Even having his future wife sleeping by his side, he can only think of him. And all because of that stupid kiss.

It brought him too many memories that he was trying really hard to bury. He hates it. Feeling so confused, so nostalgic. No matter how much he tried to deny it, Jin made him feel good. He always did. He always found a way of showing his love, with his body, with his words, with his actions.

Jin supported him even during the worst of times. But he could never return the favor. Because there was nothing he could support back. Nothing that made Jin smile other than...well, himself. And he can't take away his chance of finding that something. Of having a different life with personal golds. No, he could never do that to him...But God, he's such a good kisser.

He would die to taste his lips one more time, make him smile, make him his again. Be his world like he used to be and enjoy being on the receiving end. See him do it all for him, have a perfect happy life with him. But no. He knows that would only be a show. It wouldn't be real. Perfection is an illusion. And he knows it better than anyone.

He can't hurt the boy anymore. Jin's gonna find his own path and he'll be okay without him. But will Namjoon be okay without Jin? That's what's keeping him awake. He tries to convince himself. He'll have a wife that his family accepts. He has a job he enjoys. He has plans. He has...he has...

He can't think anymore. Trying not to wake Hyerin up, he leaves the room. He walks past Jin's bedroom holding himself from entering, taking his words back and kissing him all night. He walks down the stairs and steps out to the backyard where he lights up a cigarette. But he's not the only one there.

- I thought you were sleeping, Yoongs

- Namjoon...I tried but gave up after two hours of staring at the ceiling

- Yeah, same here

There's a minute of silence. They both stand next to each other looking at nothing in particular. One of them with his cigarette, the other one with a glass of whiskey

- Jimin told me you apologized to Jin

- Y-Yeah

- And he ended up crying on the floor.

-...

- It's okay. I'm not gonna blame you for the result. He was gonna end up crying anyway. I'm glad you made things clear

Namjoon swallows hard because if there's one thing he doesn't have is clarity.

- Thanks for that. I really don't wanna hurt him, it's just...you know

- Yeah, I know. Though now that I see you go back to smocking after all this years, I think you're not happy with your decision either

- It's just for a few days. I just...need to relieve some stress

- Mhm and nothing else? You can be honest with me. You know I won't judge you!

- I...I miss him sometimes. And the fact that he kissed me just reminded me of...the good parts of being with him

- He kissed you? After all this? Shit, he really loves you

- Well, I want him to stop loving me

- Do you?

He doesn't answer the question. He doesn't need any more questions about it or he'll never sleep again.

- And what about you? What made you drink whiskey at four AM?

- I'm supposed to ignore that you didn't answer my question?

- Basically, yes

- Hmmm...Remember the boy I used to love when we were kids?

- The online boy? Chucky?

- Chimmy

- Close enough. What about him? Let me guess! He was a sixty years old man? We can sue him!

- No, he...he turned out to be a stripper that works for me and still dances as beautifully as always.

- Really?! - His eyes open wide- Is it the one with the sexy legs? Or Jungkook's boyfriend?

- The blonde one. And I would appreciate if you don't look at his sexy legs. Also, Taehyung is not my brother's boyfriend! They hardly ever talk!

- Well, you clearly never saw him enter Kook's room in the middle of the night

For a few seconds, Yoongi stays in shock. How did this happen? Under his very own roof! He turns around, ready to talk to his brother but Namjoon stops him.

- They must be sleeping now, bro. You can scold them tomorrow. Besides, they're young. They just wanna have fun

- Have fun?! Jungkook can't go around sleeping with just anybody!

- I'll remind you that one of those "just anybody" made you cry with a video dancing ballet when we were seventeen.

- First of all, it wasn't ballet. It was contemporary

- Close enough again

- A-And it's not the same!

- I think it is. I like them. They take care of Jin... though I think your ex spits in my coffee. I've been drinking the one from the office just in case

Yoongi laughs. They keep making that joke but it's impossible they're actually doing that. Or at least that's what he thinks.

- I don't know what to think anymore. I didn't want them near my house or my brother. But Jimin...he...I can't let him go. Not again. I'll make it up to him. I'll give him everything I didn't give him before

- Sounds like you're paying a debt

- Said the one giving up a future with boy he likes

- I don't...I mean, think I don't... Ugh,forget it

- I'm telling you. I can't give up on him. And I don't know who do you love or like or whatever...but you don't have to give it up either

- Is not that simple

- Why not? I'll support your choice!

- Because I don't know who I love anymore

Yoongi has no idea what to answer to that. And once more the stay silent. It takes them another hour to be tired enough to go back inside and try to sleep again. Tomorrow is a new day, and they'll new answers. Or so they hope...

Next Chapter

Forcing Kook to follow your steps is what's destroying him!

I didn't make it, did I?

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Hello! A little chapter with the two dumbest characters of this story hahaha Next one we'll see Tae (my favorite here❤️)

I'll see you on Thursday! Have a great day! (Or night!)

- Baby Y

P.S (Completely unrelated): I almost came out of the closet for my boyfriend yesterday. But then he said he only likes me as a girl. So I guess my gender fluid ass will stay in the closet for another year. Fuck my life 😂💔💔