I'm sure all of you have heard the heartbreaking news about Zayn. It's absolutely devastating. I hate to say it but I'm going to have to sell my tickets for my concert here in the U.S. As much as I love the boys and the amazing things they have done, I feel as if with Zayn leaving it's just going to be heart wrenching the whole concert and I've been to the Where we are tour, and Take me home so I thought by selling them it could go to someone who has never even been to their concert. I saw the hash-tag cut yourself for Zayn and I cant stop thinking about it. Please do not hurt yourself over this! This is a hard time for our fandom right now but please hurting yourself is never the answer! If you feel so depressed and are having thoughts about hurting yourself, reach out! I'm here for anyone who is having a hard time! Just please talk to someone! I understand that alot of you are still in shock by his decision and if this update will be a distraction for it then please read but if you aren't ready and will get distracted while reading and upset then I understand if you want to read it later. I'm always here for anyone who needs it so don't take someones help for granted! This is a hard time for our fandom but we still have Harry, Liam, Niall and Louis who are still giving us love and the music we need! Please stay stong! We can get through this! Love you all!
Even though I wasn't apart of the Tomlinson family, I was just staying with them but Jay wasn't afraid to punish me. She was my guardian until I was eighteen and she wasn't afraid to ground me. My leg bounced nervously up and down. Louis sat across from me but felt so far away. The silence in the room was nerve wracking. The tension was so thick through the air. I couldn't even look at Jay standing above both Louis and I. I was struggling to keep my heart from pounding in my chest. I felt the pit in my stomach growing second my second, spreading through my limbs. I avoided Jays death glares between both of us.
"Mom you can't just say you want to talk to us and then sit us down and not say anything." Louis said impatiently.
"I don't even know what to say!" Jay was furious. What made it even worse was, I had such a killer hangover. I slept till two in the afternoon throwing up throughout the night.
"I mean I never thought you would do something like this Louis! I mean Shaileen.. Are you drinking because of your parents death? Do you need to talk with someone?" I finally looked up at Jay, my jaw hanging open. I shook my head swallowing the bit of throw up I felt coming.
"No! I'm not an alcoholic Jay, I didn't even mean to drink that much. Jessa wanted me to loosen up and she got me a drink. I'm fine. I don't need a therapist." I couldn't believe she thought I was drinking away my feelings!
"Don't blame Jessa Shaileen, you could have said no."
"No-" I sighed frustrated. This was just a disaster. "I just meant I did need to relax a bit and she was only being a friend and gave me a drink. I didn't mean to get drunk." I felt like crying. Jay was never mad at me but she was furious. More at me then Louis.
"Mom how much times do we have to tell you we're sorry! How much times do I have to tell you I only had one beer that's it. I wasn't tipsy or drunk." I Was mortified that Jay had to see me so drunk. Louis carrying me in his arms as I was about to throw up all over the floor. It was pathetic, I was so drunk I couldn't even walk. You could see it on Jays face, she was having a hard tim trying to be angry at the both of us. She knew how good of kids we were. Especially Louis, she never really punished him or got mad at him like this.
"You two are grounded for the rest of spring break! No friends, no going out- Both of you give me your keys!" She held her hand out. I sighed and dug the keys to my Jeep out of my pocket. I set them down in Jays hand. Her fingers wrapping around them.
"And while the girls Dan and I go to the lake house you two have to stay here with a list of chores to do." That's right, the Tomlinsons had another house up in Napa. I wasn't disappointed though, I would get to spend three days with Louis. But the chores part.. I was dreading.
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Bittersweet (Louis Tomlinson AU)
Fanfiction''I promised my mom that I would find someone that would be able to take care of me, that's what she wanted. When my whole family died and I had to move here with Jay and you. I knew that I needed to change.'' I looked up at Louis. His hand was on m...
