Bittersweet (Louis Tomlinson AU)

~Chapter 41~

''What?'' We all shouted all at the same time. My jaw had officially fallen open. I couldn't even believe the words that were coming out of her mouth. I was incredibly happy for both of them.

''Jay! That's amazing! I'm so happy for you both!'' I said when no one els said anything. I got up and hugged Jay and Dan and pressed my hand to her stomach. I couldn't believe that she was going to have a baby. Jay was like a mother figure for me and this was so wonderful to hear for her and the Tomlinson family.

''I'm going to have another brother or sister!'' Felicity smiled and ran to hug her mom. It was clear everyone was in shock. Louis still hadent said anything. But the twins both were gushing to Jay and Dan giving them hugs and kisses but I looked at Louis giving him a weird glance. He looked incredibly shocked but not mad so that was a good sign.

''Louis your really quiet..'' Dan spoke. Louis looked from Dan to Jay and gulped before giving them both a smile.

''No, i'm happy. Just a lot to take in. Six kids? You think your ready for another rebel mom?'' Louis joked.

''I think we can handle the challenge.'' Jay smiled. Louis nodded once again and went over kissing his moms cheek. And even suprsied me by hugging Dan. He seemed suprsie as well. I was happy for them. I just wish I was going to be apart of it. Yes, I do live with the tomlinsons but I missed having a family. My own family that was mine by blood. My dream came back to mind and I felt my eyes water. I couldnt just sit here all day and gloat about wishing for something that I knew couldn't take back. Once I was eighteen I would be long gone. I didn't want to leave though. Would Jay want me to come and visit her? Would she want me to come to her when I needed her help? I don't know. But I was incredibly happy for both Jay and Dan. It would be so exciting to have a baby in the house. Jay seemed to be happy as well.

''We do have a doctors appointment this morning so we should get going sweets.'' Dan reminded Jay. Everyone sat back down in their seats and finished breakfast. Jay's mouth dropped,

''I almost forgot! We must go now! Girls you want to come with?'' The twins immediately yelled in an answer.

''Yes Mommy please can we go!''

''Mommy wait for me!''

The twins were already on their feet running to find their shoes. I did want to go but I felt like since I wasn't apart of the family officially it would be wrong to go just yet.

''Yes girls, come on we cant be late. Felicity are you coming?'' Felicity nodded stuffing her mouth with her eggs. That would be perfect it could just be Louis and I.

''Alright we'll see you guys in a bit. Clean off the table please Louis.'' Jay requested and got up leaving the table. It was still chaos in the house while everyone was trying to get out the door. I couldn't talk to Louis privet yet.

But I did however help him clear off the table, both of us trying to act somewhat normal around everyone. I was just anxious to talk to him. So much was on my mind it was hard to think. My head felt like a cloudy day, it was foggy and hard to look out any further. My hands felt clammy as I tried to think of what I wanted to say to him. There was so much.

''Okay we will see you guys later! Bye love you.'' Jay called out. Finally leaving us alone.

''Love you too! Congrats.''

''Congratulations Jay.'' Louis and I both waved and smiled to them and waited until the car was long gone to run to each other and smash our lips together. I felt like I was doing something so wrong but we weren't. What was wrong with being in love right? Our kiss was filled with passion and drive. Louis held my body close to his, his hands on my waist pulling my hips to his. We always gave each other these compassionate kisses like it was our last because it very well may be.