Bittersweet (Louis Tomlinson AU)

~Chapter 43~

Louis P.O.V

There was no way this could be happening to me. At the worst time of course. My heart was racing erratically. I felt like I was going to throw up. My heart was sagging into just darkness. Sweat formed on my forehead as I turned my key again and again but nothing came out just a clicking sound.

I punched the steering wheel frustrated. How could I do this? The game had already been going on now for forty minutes and I wasn't there. She's probably crushed. She thinks I'm some doughe bag who would forget this. She's never going to talk to me again. My heart was beating loud through my ribs and I was out of breath. I leaned my head on the wheel squeezing my eyes shut. This couldn't be happening. To make this day even worse my phone didn't have any service.

I promised her I would be there and because of one stupid fight we haven't talked in almost two weeks. That's ridiculous. This shouldn't have dragged out for this long. I should have talked to her sooner. I was the one who didn't take the situation seriously and forgot how she is.

I forgot that she is afraid of not knowing what to do. I blew it for us. She probably hates me and I can't get there.

So much has happened and I can't keep up, I wanted to tell her I was sorry, but every time I tried it was like she was frozen and gave me glare and left. Like the time I walked in on her changing. Her sexy body hugged that tight towel to her. Small droplets of water fell from her hair and to her face. My mouth had dropped and I was lost for words. She didn't say anything to me. She gave me the most disgusting look and pushed me out.

I was so speechless I couldn't even tell her. She was unbelievably stubborn and I knew I screwed up but she also owes me an apology she was acting a bit selfish and it was ridiculous how dragged this fight had been. My mom was even starting to notice our strange behavior. Lottie even yelled at me about it. Somehow she found out. But I also heard her yelling at Shaileen.

I craved her body again. I wanted to kiss her lips so bad. Her soft lips that made me loose control. I needed to be there at the game right now, In the stands cheering my girl on. I even went to Chris's asking him what I should do and how to talk to her. And about her mom. Which had always been my main concern.

I definitely had my suspicions but I would never tell her that. the worst part about this whole thin. Was she is already in a emotional state and I know I'm the only one who gives her that ease. I felt my stomach clench;the blood draining from my face. I felt so tired and weak from trying to start my car and all of these strange emotions that have been flooding through me.

I picked up my phone for the hundredth time trying to get any reception. The worst part was I was in the middle of no where. I was lost on some rode and alone.

But I sighed in relief was I saw I had two bars. I felt like I could finally take a breath. I was quick to dial Chris's number. He answers quickly.

"What the hell Louis!?" I never heard him seem so distressed or upset. I winced and felt the guilt eating me away. All the guys were at the game to, she was probably looking for me.

"I know I'm sorry, Im lost and my car won't start I think the battery died. I didn't have any re-"

"Shut the hell up and listen to me! Louis there was an accident I'm at the hospital now waiting for Shaileen." My heart stopped at hearing her name. He had to be kidding? But he wasn't he sounded so upset and angry. He couldn't possibly be joking around. I felt like I couldn't breath again. The blood drained completely form my face. I couldn't speak my throat felt raw from trying not to cry.

She had been through so much, what could have happened that she needed the hospital. I'm not there. I'm not there to hold her. To tell her it's okay. To kiss away her pain.