Angels | Ghosts Of The Past 2 [BoyxBoy] ✓

13. Crash

Chase.

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Last night was fun. Hanging out with Sky and his dad. Aron came a little later too. Sky and his dad look nothing alike but they have the same way of saying things. They're both very blunt. And they swear a lot. Being with Sky and Aron is so healing. It's like all the crap with me and school isn't happening when I'm with them. They just makes me happy. Then I come home and I feel like shit again. Loren's coming home soon.. that's... good. I guess. I'm kind of nervous to see her. I feel like she'll look right through me and know about what happened. And it won't take her long to know how messed up I am over it. 

I've been dealing with it as best as I can. I have been drinking a little too much lately and I've been meeting up with random guys off the internet. It's distracting and kind of exciting. Though I always feel like shit after. I tried to hang out with my dad to take my mind off things but he's busy with work and practicing some song with Sky. For Sky's mom. So they can get together. And get married. I really don't want my dad and Sky's mom to get married. Then me and Sky will actually be brothers. It'll be like another nail in the coffin. It's bad enough Sky considers me his kid brother, I don't want to actually be it by law too. 

"Chase, you'll be late for school if you don't leave soon!" My mom calls. 

"I'm almost done!" I yell back. 

I put on some black rings and chains over my black and white striped shirt. I quickly slide on my black combat boots and head for the door. Then I remember I almost forgot my water bottle. I reach into the back of my closet. 

"Chase! I don't want you to be late again!" 

"I'm coming, Jesus!" I scream louder then I intended to. 

"Chase?!" She sounds shocked and hurt. 

I sigh and take a big sip from the black water bottle. It's not actually water. I couldn't get through the day on that. 

I make my way down stairs. 

"I can't believe you took the lord's name in vain!" My mother scolds. 

"Since when is Jesus the lord?" I sigh. 

"Chase!" She smacks my arm. 

"Alright! I'm sorry!" 

"You'd better be." Mom gives me a stern look.

"Bye mom." I say as I head out the door.

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I pull up at school and soon after stepping out I'm surrounded by my friends. They immediately begin to talk about girls and sex and it just makes me feel more alone than ever. I have no way to relate to them at all. 

We all walk into the school together

"Hi, Chase." Melissa joins my side. 

"Hi." I say listlessly. 

"You look good today." 

"..Thanks." I frown. Her boyfriend is right in front of us.

"You have science next, right? Me too." She smiles. 

I nod confused. We say goodbye to the guys and take a right into the hallway. 

She grabs onto my arm. I resist the urge to pull away. 

"What are you doing?" 

"What do you think?" She giggles. Then she starts to squeeze my bicep. 

"Ooh, you're strong! Do you workout?" She asks.