What If (Newtmas Fanfiction)

Chapter 14

Thomas' POV

As Newt's silhouette grew smaller and smaller, I stood there next to Minho. Dumbfounded.

Before he could disappear completely into the darkness, I began to sprint after him. Minho tried to follow me, but I turned around,

"Let me."

Two simple words, enough for him to understand. 

I continued to follow the shadow of my best friend, as Minho stood behind. 

Millions of thoughts travelled through my head. Huh. It was ironic how a few days ago we were battling death itself.

Remorse swallowed me, as each step I got closer to Newt. The slender shape of his body becoming clearer every second. 

The beach seemed to stretch out endlessly, it felt like an eternity before I was finally able to reach Newt. 

"What do you want"

Venom was dripping from his voice, the anger and the hurt. 

My heart shattered into a million pieces, I hated myself. Newt was the most pure and compose person I have ever met. It takes a lot to break him... 

"Newt..."

I whispered gently.

"What the bloody hell do you want?! Is it fun to toy with my feelings?! To bloody break my heart time over time!" 

Newt roared into my face. I could feel his heated breath and the pain radiating from his body.

"You bloody bastard!"

He shoved me in the chest with a shocking amount of power. I didn't bother to fight back, all I did was stagger backwards.

"Newt... I.."

"Slim it! Every single time, I fall for your bloody apologies, I believe your lies! But no, not this time!"

Newts voice was shaking dangerously, his beautiful face under the moon mixed with hatred and pain. 

To be honest I didn't know what to do, I didn't understand my constant craving for him, nor how I could be so careless to break him like this. 

Then I saw it, the insanity in his eyes. 

Almost like...

Before I knew it, his eyes started dissolving into darkness, consumed by the virus that once controlled him.

No.

"Tommy... I don't know what's happening... I.. I can't"

Newt whimpered, his eyes shut in the effort to suppress the insanity. 

I was terrified, fear trickling back into my systems. Panic running through my veins.

Before I could stop myself, I rushed forward, pulling Newt into a hug. 

I knew it was the most idiotic thing to do, but it felt like I was drawn in by a magnetic force. 

I caressed his back, trying my best to sooth him. But he continued to struggle to try and escape my grasp. I couldn't hold on for much longer. 

"Newt... I know you can fight this... please...  I know you're strong enough. I can't lose you. I'm... I'm sorry for putting you through all that pain. I... I love you too."

His body relaxed slightly, the breathing on my neck calmed. A sigh of relief escaped through my lips. 

I slowly pulled away, examining his face, not a trace of the virus was seen. Only the gorgeous face of the man I love.

"Tommy..."

"Hey, it's ok you're safe now... you're safe."