The Descendants Of The Gods!

Today.

Basically my close friend (I cannot disclose the name), died today- 14/10/2021

I have known her for seven years.

Yesterday, she had asked me to meet her. But I wasn't able to because of COVID-19

And the same night between 12:00 to 3:00am, she suicide.

I feel guilty because maybe if I had met her, I would have known and helped her to get out of it.

I wasn't even able to see her for the last time.

The last time I had met her in person and seen her was 21st March 2020. I wasn't able to meet her after that due to Covid-19.

The last conversation I had with her ended on 13th October 2021, 3:16pm.

I woke up to not find her there. Because I wasn't there with her.

I don't know why she did it. That's the thing I regret about the most.

She had left a note behind. It said that she knew whatever she is doing is wrong but she is still doing it.

I don't know how she knew how to tie a noose knot, nor do I know why she did it even when she was aware it is wrong.

I'm angry. So angry at her. She has no right-No right to leave us all alone.

I just want to say to each one of you, that always remember that your life is short.

If you have anything that bothers you  talk to someone.

Life isn't a play. Y'all need to know shit about yourself, know it is not right to think and feel like that and please talk to someone about it who can show you the right path.

Please take care of yourselves.

You don't know what happens next.

Always be happy with people.

R. I. P. my friend. I hope you are happy wherever you are. Hope you forgive for not being able to see you even though you wanted to see me when you knew what you were going to do.

I never deserved you. You will always be my best friend.

Thank You for reading this. I'm sorry, I just had to let this out because I did not want my guilt to eat me up.

Remember however strong you are, your heart is sensitive. And if anything tugs on it for a long time and you don't do anything about it then it will eat you up.

Please be strong, if not for yourself, at least for your loved ones.

Thanks again,

KayMore.