Alpha Elijah's Transgender Mate (On Hold)

23. Forgiveness

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All the emotions overwhelm me, I stop falling to the ground sobbing, fire once again going out. I hear Anthoney in front of me blocking me from Elijah's view, Melanie to my left rubbing her hand on my back soothing me and Amelia to my right trying to make sure I'm okay.

It takes 5 minutes for me to be responsive of my surroundings but when I do I wish I wasn't Elijah's not looking at me he's looking a Melanie and that makes the pain hurt even more. So, for the first time ever I say the words that I wish were true.

"I wish that I was never born"

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Time had gone so fast its now night time and I'm was being escorted back to my house after everything happened. All I felt was numbness like my body didn't know how I was supposed to feel. I look up at the sky trying to stop the tears that were fighting so hard to roll down my face, but all that did is make the tears build up even more to the point they were pouring down my face and neck.

"It's okay T" Anthoney sooths me as we walk into the house, as soon as I walk into the lounge room I see that the house is clean. I collapse onto the couch, curl up in a ball and just let the tears fall across my face.

"I feel like somehow this is my fault. Maybe if I said something differently or just did what he wanted it'd be fine right now. We'd be fine" I cry out softly to anyone how would listen. I hear people around me shuffle, so they are surrounding me in a group hug.

"In the end Tate it's not your fault and it's not even my fault its Elijahs he couldn't get over the past and what he didn't have any more that he couldn't see that there was someone new, his soulmate, standing right in front of him" Melanie whispers out softly back looking into my eyes. I feel my eyes begin to dry as I run out of tears my eyes are sore from wiping away the tears and my eyes feel heavy.

Before I fall asleep I hear a howl in the distance I know its Elijah calling for me I get up seeing Anthoney, Melanie, Amelia and Victoria in the kitchen I get up quietly and sneak out the house, I'll talk to Elijah one last time because I can't take the pain of being mates with him anymore. My damp hoodie sleeves make my hands cold along with the wind going straight through my clothes making me regret my decision to go outside so late. I hear a howl again as I walk into the opening of trees, I see Elijah's wolf there pacing back and forth when he hears me walk through the trees he looks up at me and I advert my eyes down.

I hear him shifting back and then clear his throat.

"I didn't think you'd come" he voice cracks slightly, I just nod and shrug my shoulders not really wanting to talk. I hear his heart pumping which alerts me to the fact he's nervous.

"I really want to apologise Tate this is all my fault I didn't realise you knew about Melanie. I should have told you I just didn't know how you would react" he said trying to explain himself, I move my head further down so he can see the hurt on my face as my eyes sting once again. I just shake my head, not wanting to hear excuses.

"I know your hurt Tate I can feel it my wolf can feel it, were honestly really sorry we did this" Elijah says now putting his head down upset.

"I mated with you, and you still love someone else" I sob out, he walks closer I feel the pull to him get stronger.

"Please give us a chance to love you properly like we should of from the start, we will take care of you, protect you, listen to you but most importantly love you. Please" he begs as a tear falls down his face, I finally look him in the eyes and see that he is being genuine I nod my head sobbing I feel his arms wrap around my small frame. I feel the sparks I hadn't felt properly in so long I feel my body finally start giving into the sleep it so desperately needed.