Claws Against Petals✓

26•|Golden Eyes

Orchid's POV:

"Gray, your brother....his name, was it, Jacob-"

"He was my older brother...he's gone...along with our parents. Orchid, whatever you read in your father's journal, none of it...will ever be your fault. Your mother...I don't know why she left. I will never understand why she chose a human, over her kind. I hated her...loathed her, perhaps, maybe that's why I didn't like you when I first met you. Because you resembled her so much...along with your scent. I wish...I could've done more, to keep her in the pack. But if I did that, then I don't think you would have been born... Orchid, why is it that... whenever I hold you, you become so small? Such a fragile body you have...yet you walk into a wild beast's den, a foolish girl, is what you are. Do you pity me that much-"

"No...I... just never seen you smile before. You always look like you're in pain, your eyes... always look cold. Everyone is afraid of you...and you keep away from the others. But I, don't wanna believe that you are this monster that everyone says you are. Grayson...I want you, to trust others...or at least...try and trust me."

I sobbed while placing both of my hands on either side of his face, embracing his stare, he continued to look empty. Yet his breathing grew uneven as the blood in my hand stained his cheek. His gaze never left mine, even as he pressed his forehead close to me, I shut my eyes before feeling his warm lips pressing against my eyelids. I don't understand...if he's this dangerous vicious wolf that everyone turns him out to be. Then why does he hold me so gently? Even when he tried to kill me before, he was hesitant...

"Orchid...I'm trying...but I can't change from where I've come. I will never, deserve to smile again...not when I'm the one who shed the blood of my past loved ones. I truly hate it...what I am, what I would give...to never be part of Silver Crest. I want...to keep my distance from you, but I can't... because I don't wish to see you die because of me. All I could do was keep you safe. So use me...it's how I was always been raised to be, killing others...and defending what must be protected. I'm not someone who should be wasted on in caring for, not when I've killed so many-"

Immediately pulling him into my embrace, I held him tightly as he embraced me. Burying his face along my neck, I felt the softness of his hair brushing against my cheek. The trembling of his grip was obvious, he's shaking...and it pains me to see him this way. I want to do more for him...to take away his agony, but do I have the right? No... I can't, I shouldn't be...or else, I'll be betraying Damien. I want...to keep loving him, but I feel as though I don't even recognize him anymore. Is it wrong, to give my heart to someone else who needs it? Will that make me a wicked woman, all I want...is to keep holding Grayson this way. I'm sorry...I'm so sorry...

"I don't care what you have to say... because I will always be there to care for you. Your past isn't who you are now. I'm so angry...so sad...and hurt, for being lied to by others. Grayson...I beg you, don't keep secrets from me. I don't think I could handle any more heartache, so please, help me...so I can help you. I know I'm being selfish, but I don't know what else to do?"

I said with deep sadness as I felt his hand wrapping around the back of my neck. We then took a moment to look into each other's eyes...his thumb carefully caressed the last remaining tears away from my face as I watched him slowly lean into me...

"I've always been selfish... Orchid, forgive me..."

He whispered in remorse as I felt him suddenly kiss me, his lips were warm...his hands were strong, and his scent was breathtaking. It's not possible to push him off, but even if I could, would I want to? Although the kiss didn't last long, I still felt the heated tingle of my lips craving for more. But I was caught off guard by Grayson's sudden movement as he picked me up! Helping me get on my feet, he still embraced me wholeheartedly before placing another kiss on my forehead. Though I couldn't help but stare at the injury around his neck, it stopped bleeding. But I'm still surprised that Grayson was able to hurt himself to prove me wrong...